Do I have schizotypal disorder or even schizophrenia?

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Fallout of Nevada starts inside the big hole mentioned by a character named Lydia in Fallout 2 (she may use the phrase "big hole" in conversation), that hole is the entrance to Vault 8. Gameplay of Colonel RPG ends also inside the big hole! Big Hole coincidence is amazing!

Film #114 on Colonel's RPG channel is entitled "Ares that are so easy (for me) to miss". The title starts on "A" and ends on "s". In that film player encountered Big Hole third (and last) time in gameplay! During Big Hole encounter the word "as" regularly popped up.

First word is very coincident:
- by swapping two letters in it we will receive impolite word for anus or buttocks in British English,
- the word "Ares" starts on "A" and ends on "s" and "as" is the word with pops up during the encounter,
- the word "anus" is four-lettered and has "a" at the beginning and "s" at the end, like "Ares" and the Big Hole is anus of nitrogen-based alien lifeform!

I think that "schizoid disorder of childhood" is not a personality disorder, but a form of autism. If someone has marked schizoid traits in childhood (lack of need of being loved or accepted, disinterest in making friends and having colleagues), he or she is in some way autistic in my opinion.

11.11.2019 I typed in Google phrase koran ostateczny wróg which means "Quran ultimate enemy" without quotation marks, and first link in results was to a film (with window). The content of that link was: Ben 10 - Ultimatum Obcych - 51 - Wróg Ostateczny Część 1 ("Ben 10 - Aliens' ultimatum - 51 - Ultimate Enemy Part 1").

Earlier the same day I saw in the Internet (YouTube) link film #59 in let's play to Fallout: Nevada on Colonel RPG channel, where in the title there was the text "No trespassing in Area 51". Even earlier, very probably also 11.11.2019, I heard music from series ... Ben 10 from my sister's room! In location Area 51 in Fallout: Nevada there were many creatures named as "aliens". 51, aliens, Ben 10 - coincidence.

The date is very interesting, it is the only in 2019, which has five digits "1" in it.

5 digits "1" are also associated with certain dependency in Arabic text of the Quran - I read the text in which there were mentioned numbers of words in groups of chapters from that book where the groups have 11 (longest), 11 (shortest) and 1 ("middle") chapters. In numbers: 11, 11, 1 we have five digits "1"! 5 and 1 - 51. Number 51 is the key for that coincidence. In date 11.11.2019 there are two numbers 11 and in the number meaning year there is one digit 1. Again two "11" and one "1"!

Next sign from supernatural beings?

No, you don’t have schizophrenia, what you have is classic magical thinking which is a symptom of OCD. In my case, I have OCD, but due to a very, very traumatic life, and my living situation is still very toxic, that I dissociate frequently with daydreams.

OCD thoughts are unpleasant and my coincidences are pleasant and fascinating. A psychiatrist once wrote that my coincidences are magical thinking. In addition, I am very poor in money-earning, job skills. People with pure OCD should be rather more developed occupationally than I.

Let's look at numbers: 10, 51, 1:
- sum of first digits in these numbers is 7 (1+5+1),
- sum of second digits in these numbers is 1 (0+1, number 1 is one-digit and has no second digit),
- sum of last digits in these numbers is 2 (0+1+1, last digit in number 1 is the same as first one because it is one-digit number).
We received digits: 7, 1, 2 - 21.7 can be formed by these digits!

There is something interesting associated with 11.11.2019 and 11, 11, 1 and "giant egg" (5, 23, 421). Sum of numbers in the date 11.11.2019 is 2041 (11+11+2019), the number 2041 has sum of digits 7 and phrase 12 4 can be formed from three of four its digits. Phrase "12 4" can be also formed by digits of number 421.

Sum of digits in 11, 11, 1 is 5 and sum of numbers 11, 11, 1 is 23! 5 and 23 are additive Thabit primes and two smaller numbers of "giant egg"!

^^^even though i am somewhat innumerate, now and then when i'm in a mathematical mood i will add up the numbers on my digital alarm clock and see the symmetries involved.

I noticed something associated with numbers 11, 13, 23 (sums of digits in numbers of words in groups of Quran chapters which chapters have prime numbers as numbers of words in them - 10037 (11 longest), 337 (1 "middle"), 797 (11 shortest)). We have numbers: 11, 1, 11 here.

But let's talk about 11, 13, 23:
1. Sums of digits in these numbers are: 2, 4, 5. Concatenation of these three numbers will give 245. 245 is divisible by 7.
2. First digits in 11, 13, 23 are: 1, 1, 2. They form number 112 if concatenated. 112 is divisible by 7 (7x16).
3. Second digits in numbers: 11, 13, 23 are: 1, 3, 3. They form number 133 if concatenated. 133 is divisible by 7 (7x19).
4. Difference between 133 (larger number) and 112 (smaller number) is 21. 21 = 7x3.
5. Difference between product of digits in number 133 and product of digits in number 112 is... 7!
1x3x3 = 9
1x1x2 = 2
9-2 = 7

Numbers: 11, 13, 23 are associated with "miaculous" quintet formed by five first Thabit numbers (321 numbers):
- 2 - all three numbers have 2 digits; only digit which does not repeat oneself in three numbers together is 2; sum of digits in the smallest number in triplet 11, 13, 23 is 2;
- 5 - sum of digits in the largest number is 5 (2+3); there are 5 digits which do not mean 321 number (1, 1, 1, 3, 3);
- 11 - sum of digits in the numbers forming triplet 11, 13, 23 together; also the smallest number of that triplet;
- 23 - the largest number in the triplet 11, 13, 23;
- 47 - sum of numbers 11, 13, 23.

There are also some references to "Tesla's sequence":
- 3 - set of numbers: 11, 13, 23 contains 3 numbers and digit 3 occurs in two larger ones;
- 6 - in the triplet: 11, 13, 23 there are 6 digits;
- 9 - sum of digits meaning odd numbers occurring in these three two-digit numbers is 9 (1+1+1+3+3), what is more, product of these digits is also 9;
- 18 - it is sum of 3, 6, 9 and product of digits of 11, 13, 23.

I had coincidences associated with names of the patients who were in the same group on day hospital as me at 28.10.2019. It was the only day when there were two pairs of patients with the same names (or dimunitives of names which were written) in the group.

4 patients, 2 names (2 patients with one and 2 with second). The names had the same number of letters and the difference between their names was only one letter! Two people joined the group that day, they had names (or dimunitives of first names) with the same number of letters as 4 patients mentioned earlier, the difference between two names of new patients was only two letters. In addition, in the group at the same time there were three other men who had names or dimunitives of names with the same number of letters and the same last two letters!

Date: 28.10.2019 is coincident. Numbers formed by two last digits in digits of the numbers in that date are: 28, 10, 19. The numbers sorted ascendingly form three-membered arithmetic sequence: 10, 19, 28. In these 3 numbers there are 6 digits together and common difference is 9. 3, 6, 9! In addition, sum of digits in these three numbers is 21 and arithmetic mean of sums of digits in numbers forming these numbers is 7! Coincidence with 21 7!

I would say definitely not schizophrenia, as that is more centered around delusions/hallucinations. Paranoia can be a part of it, but not a standalone trait. I suppose you could technically have schizotypal PD. Sounds like a lot of your repetition-centered thoughts/behaviors come from a combination of OCD/Asperger's. OCD without insight is a real thing though so it could that with the Asperger's. In that case, it might not be STPD at all! I can relate to some of your thinking patterns, and I was diagnosed with OCD in high school but had signs way before that. My gut feeling is that AS and OCD can interact with each other in unique ways and affect people in all sorts of ways. Do whatever you need to do to take care of yourself though!

Coincidences were virtually absent in me before IX 2014. They can be very nice for my nature, definitely they are not intrusive ruminations! They are rather opposite of OCD symptoms... From coincidences my mentality can produce ideas of reference, messengership or apostleship, grandiosity.

I met many people with schizophrenia and they were not as "bizarre", "peculiar" as me. Why so many people with schizophrenia are higher functioning and more "normal" than I? People with AS are also more "normal" and rather better functioning than I. I am pretty total failure in social and occupational area.

I did not have hallucinations at all, practically. I also have never had feeling of being persecuted or invigilated.
But I had a thought that I am God and believed in it about 10 years ago.

I rather have no doubts that I have OCD. I think that I may have NVLD rather than ASD. I have also very abnormal sexual disorders since childhood. They boost my level of "kookiness" strongly. I think that only complete "nut" would be sexually aroused because of things which caused sexual pleasure in my case. I would say that some sexual preference disorders are more atypical than psychoses. I have problem with strange thought content.

you are still as much a child of the universe as anybody else, and just as deserving of love

I read about next supposed mathematical miracle associated with Quran. If we form the number which has 114 digits, which is formed by next digits meaning numbers of bismillahs in chapters of Quran from 1st to 114th, we we will receive interesting number divisible by 7:
111111110111111111111111112111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111 =
15873015730158730158730158873015873015873015873015873015873015873015873015873015873015873015873015873015873015873 x 7

Now we read 114-digit number from above backwards (the result is also divisible by 7 and the same six digits (0, 1, 3, 5, 7, 8 ) as in first 113-digit number repeat themselves in it):
111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111211111111111111111011111111 =
15873015873015873015873015873015873015873015873015873015873015873015873015873015873015887301587301587301573015873 x 7

In first number digits 1, 5, 7, 3 appear 19 times(?), in second 1, 3, 5, 7, 8 appear 19 times.

I noticed something associated with arithmetic sequence 33, 42, 51 at 28.05.2020. These three numbers (33, 42, 51) are atomic numbers of, respecively: arsenic, molybdenum, antimony. Polish names of these elements (arsen, molibden, antymon) "were considered" by me as vulgarisms meaning, respectively: regio glutealis (buttocks, interval between them and anus), penis, vulva ((external) female genitalia). It was when I was about 13 - 16 years old. I used "autoprovocation" to popularize these neologisms without saying these three words. I told people that these words mean intimate body parts, especially in school. It started because of the word "arsenic" which has impolite word for rear end from British English "inside" it (four letters). So I decided that the word "arsen" would mean "buttocks". Without this rude British word, coincidence probably would have never happened.

First digits of numbers forming sequence 33, 42, 51 are: 3, 4, 5.
Second digits of numbers forming arithmetic sequence 33, 42, 51 are: 3, 2, 1.

3, 4, 5 will be bases of powers and 3, 2, 1 will be exponents of them:
3^3 = 3x3x3 = 27
4^2 = 4x4 = 16
5^1 = 5 = 5

We received arithmetic sequence 27, 16, 5. Its sum of numbers is 48 and aritmetic mean is 16.
Sums of digits in 27, 16, 5 are:
2+7 =9
1+6 = 7
5 = 5
We received another arithmetic sequence: 9, 7, 5. This sequence is very interesting for me because it has sum of numbers (and digits) 21 and arithmetic mean of numbers 7.
21, 7 - it is most coincident double for me.

It is interesting if there is any other triad of numbers (at least where all are two-digits) where first and second digits form non-constant arithmetic sequences and if first digits would be bases of powers and second would be exponents which has results of exponentition forming arithmetic sequence... Or geometric sequence.

For 15, 24, 33 (formed by reading 33, 42, 51 backwards) the results of exponentiation will not form arithmetic or geometric sequence:
1^5 = 1x1x1x1x1 = 1
2^4 = 2x2x2x2 = 16
3^3 = 3x3x3 = 27

Someone on Polish AS forum thinks that I have relatively moderate schizophrenia and that I have not ASD (and that I have never had ASD). Typical schizophrenia is not like ASD because onset is quite late (in adolescence or adulthood). Childhood-onset schizophrenia is rare. I may think that I have a schizo illness which is a pervasive developmental disorder at the same time. It could explain why I function so low in comparison to many Aspies and why I have "creepy" symptoms. I would not said that I have mild autism. I think that people with MILD autism are higher functioning than me and have less "peculiar" symptoms. I suppose that people with mild autism may not meet criteria of PDD or ASD from DSM or ICD-10 due to so small impairment in functioning. But they may have genes responsible for severe autism in (at least potential) offspring. I think that some people with autism do not require support. They have mild PDD which can make them not needing ruling of disability (such a rulings are given in my country). They can earn quite large amounts of money despite their mild autism, have partner or even offspring, driving licence, live abroad and travel around many countries, live independently. These achievements might be inaccessible for me to the end of my life on Earth. But maybe it will be better in my case? Now I am just moderate-functioning. I do not have ruling of incapacity of independent existence (which means that you have problems with quite basic activities, not (just) earning money and having friends, but (also) with going to the shop or even to the toilet. I have not as severe level of disability as people who have no sight at all. I think that in USA I might have just diagnoses of antisocial personality and NVLD instead of schizotypal disorder or schizophrenia or Asperger's syndrome. I think that cases like mine should be more investigated.

If it is any help, I have both a persistent psychosis-triggering illness and Asperger's. Both were clinically diagnosed almost 10 years ago. For 7 of those years, life was chaos and I almost died ... thrice. I advise you to seek medical advice if you experience schizophrenia-like symptoms. With the right medicine, attitude and lifestyle changes, you can get the life you desire.

If I remember well, it was written that I have severe OCD in document from my latest commission about social pension. I am regularly diagnosed with schizophrenia-type disorder, Asperger's syndrome and OCD.

I have also serious problems with sexuality (bizarre paraphilias since childhood, I was diagnosed with "other sexual preference disorder" more than four years ago (after going to day hospital first time in my life, the going lasted about 12 weeks) and after it I had some visits with sexuologists, after last of them injections were proposed due to my deviations (I do not practice sexual activities since about 13 years, but still have sexual drive, sometimes my dreams during sleeping are erotic), not tablets. So it looks that my paraphilias are somewhat severe.

I read that "większość osób z zaburzeniami schizotypowymi nie wymaga lub nie odczuwa potrzeby leczenia" in Polish Wikipedia ("majority of people with schizotypal disorders do not require need of medication, treatment or do not feel the need of medication, treatment"). It was also written that schizotypal disorders are quite common - that they occur in about 3% or 3,9% of population.