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The Drugs Don’t Work - The Verve

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Love Lies Bleeding
Elton John



I think I've shared this one before but it's that time of year again. My sixteenth birthday -- the day after Twilightprincess was born -- I was home in my parents' back yard with nothing to do because I was such a misfit at school, I had no friends. I felt sorry for myself because sixteenth birthdays are supposed to be a big deal for girls.

A floral delivery arrived at the house. It was a big box with 16 red roses inside, and a little card saying:


"Happy Sweet 16 Issy. Love, X"


The X meant I had a secret admirer! I was out of my mind trying to figure out which boy at school was secretly in love with me. I was pretty sure it was a senior I had a crush on despite never speaking to him in my life.

I was swooning with the romance of it all, and feeling good about myself for the first time in years.

My dad stood by watching, with tears in his eyes.

Just a couple of hours after that, we got word that my grandfather shot himself in the head. He committed suicide because of depression, anxiety, and social phobia (undiagnosed ASD), which is exactly what I'd been feeling at the time. He was found lying on his kitchen floor, bleeding.

I watched my dad's tears of joy about my roses turn to tears of anguish.

Only later did I learn that my dad had sent me the roses, not a random boy. He purposely sent them from "X" so I'd think they were from a boy, and I'd feel popular.

The song Love Lies Bleeding reminds me of that day, which was the best and worst of my life. It even begins with an instrumental called Funeral for a Friend.

There were red roses at my Gramps' funeral when I still had Dad's 16 red roses in my bedroom.

Not to be graphic but there was also a lot of blood when my grandpa died, and we later went to the house to replace the floor tiles because they'd been stained. Everything red reminds me of turning 16.

I still can't look at red roses or listen to this song without crying, especially on my birthday.


Lyrics:

The roses in the window box have tilted to one side
Everything about this house was born to grow and die
It doesn't seem a year ago to this very day
You said I'm sorry honey, if I don't change the pace
I can't face another day