TwilightPrincess wrote:
^^^ I tend to think that cults exist on a spectrum. Some groups have traits but not enough to be fully considered a cult, and on the other end of the spectrum are extreme groups like Heaven’s Gate.
From what you’ve said before, your former church seems pretty controlling to me. That’s really what it boils down to.
Or at least the mindset my parents, especially mom, had.
Just went on a walk while listening to music, and
this song came on. It is extremely reminiscent of how I felt while in the process of leaving IFB.
"It takes a simple nod to fall in line
But it takes everything to stand alone
Eventually you may end up crossing the line
Before you understand that your ass is on your own
Believe me
I don't judge you just because of what you do
So don't judge me on things I'd rather not do
It ain't easy trying not to fit in
Lost touch to a few close ones cuz I didn't give in"
I very much felt like a lone wolf shunned from their pack during that time. I even drew art based off this imagery.
"I wanna live my life not to just exist
Gonna get my rights so I fight back and resist
They wanna do it like they own me
Make another me like cloning only little do they know me
You can never hold me"
"Nothing is promised
Nothing is flawless
Everything's a contest
So I've got to take a shot
I will not take a swat
From any spot
Cuz I've got
To fight back"
"Determined not to surrender
Under any circumstances
Over my dead body is their only chances"
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ASD level 1, ADHD-C, most likely have dyscalculia & BPD as well.
RAADs: 104 | ASQ: 30 | Aspie Quiz: 116/200 (84% probability of being atypical)
Also diagnosed with: seasonal depression, anxiety, OCD