newchum wrote:
I'm not sure on what I should do.
Funny thing about certainty--
Scientists observed the brain while people made decisions and made an astounding discovery: the brain makes decisions first and thinks about the decision after. The brain make the decision in a snap, and the throughts come after as a sort of justification of what the snap decision worked out. We don't perceive it that way, but that's what the brain does.
So you say you're not sure what you should do. Actually, you are. (Spooky, hm?)
But I hear you: "I'm glad my brain has decided. How do I access it, for Pete's sake?"
The problem is the thoughts that are swirling around in your head. They're locked up. Thoughts get locked in
uncertainty because the brain has two
competing certainties fighting each other. In this case, I'm presuming the two certainties are, "I should take this great job, get my own place, and have some wheels and cash," versus "I should get my butt in school full-time, join the campus life, and get going."
To zap the mental traffic jam, do something very silly: Sit and say
aloud your own formulation of the two certainties that are at war. Say one for a while, then the other. Keep doing this for as long as it takes. Pretty soon, you'll start to laugh and feel a tremendous sense of relief. You won't worry about the decision any more after that. It will make itself, with you there to watch, pleased and certain. What happens is, by saying the certainties aloud, the mind somehow recognizes them as only thoughts, with no real influence over you. it short-circuits the power on these mental certainties and lets the decision come through. Try it. You'll see.