09 Oct 2009, 7:36 pm
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09 Oct 2009, 8:20 pm
Right up until I read this post I did.
I think the most painful thing (at least for me) is knowing why I have all of these issues and yet I cannot figure out how to make it all stop or how to help it. 
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gnosislogicemotion
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09 Oct 2009, 9:05 pm
Every time I'm out in public I get this intuitive feeling that people are not like me at all. It's not just being on the autism spectrum either as I'm also very different from other aspies here. For one thing I'm asexual and it seems like everyone else in the world assumes I'm a regular heterosexual male. I feel like I'm missing out and it hurts. I want to be able to feel something deeply, to love, but I can't.
Lately I just feel so useless and empty and distant from everything. I get so introspective that I feel like I'm losing all my interests. And it bothers me that it doesn't seem like other people are as introspective as I am, they just seem to glide along in life without having to really think about much. Jesus, I don't even know how to articulate what I'm thinking or what's bothering me so much, it just is - painful.
Are you familiar with schizoid personality 'disorder'?? Wikipedia it and see if you identify with this. It overlaps in many ways with AS and considering all these labels used in psychology are just attempts to categorize unfathomably complex alterations in neuro function it could very well be that you posess qualities of both SPD and AS as I belive I do.
I was diagnosed with AS but I also see a lot of myself in the schizoid personality type. I often feel exactly as you do. Infact, I wish you could be my friend so I'd have someone who I could truly empathize with and feel a connection to
leejosepho
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09 Oct 2009, 9:31 pm
whipstitches
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Age: 50
Gender: Female
Posts: 323
Location: Saskatchewan, Canada
09 Oct 2009, 9:37 pm
Ya know... I used to fell like there was no one else like me..... and then I discovered Wrong Planet. Whenever I feel weird... I just log in and start to feel "normalized" again..... 
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09 Oct 2009, 10:58 pm
I can relate. I have never really connected with people (talking with people on WP is the closest I have gotten). I have never been in a relationship, though I don't believe I am asexual, I just have never gotten close enough to anyone. I do want to feel a connection with people in my life, but I can't relate to them.
I don't know how introspective I am, I try to be but I feel like a void. I go through my day and nothing leaves an impact. Its like I see everything but it leaves my mind as it leaves my sight. Nothing leaves its mark on me and I leave my mark on nothing. Don't know if that makes sense.
Ps. I looked at your profile, its nice to find someone from my area. I am in the NW too and love it up here, love taking my dogs for hikes in the rainforests. 
09 Oct 2009, 11:24 pm
10 Oct 2009, 11:51 pm
Every time I'm out in public I get this intuitive feeling that people are not like me at all. It's not just being on the autism spectrum either as I'm also very different from other aspies here. For one thing I'm asexual and it seems like everyone else in the world assumes I'm a regular heterosexual male. I feel like I'm missing out and it hurts. I want to be able to feel something deeply, to love, but I can't.
Lately I just feel so useless and empty and distant from everything. I get so introspective that I feel like I'm losing all my interests. And it bothers me that it doesn't seem like other people are as introspective as I am, they just seem to glide along in life without having to really think about much. Jesus, I don't even know how to articulate what I'm thinking or what's bothering me so much, it just is - painful.
Are you familiar with schizoid personality 'disorder'?? Wikipedia it and see if you identify with this. It overlaps in many ways with AS and considering all these labels used in psychology are just attempts to categorize unfathomably complex alterations in neuro function it could very well be that you posess qualities of both SPD and AS as I belive I do.
I do think I have some qualities of SPD but when I went to a forum for SPD people it seemed that most of them didn't have any problem with who they were. I'm extremely uncomfortable with myself and it's not just self-consciousness, at least I don't think it's that alone. I feel like there's something horribly missing with me. I don't even know who or what I am. Also, I can sometimes enjoy socializing, it's just that I don't get any feeling of deep connection. Nothing really satisfies me. It's that intuitive sense telling me that "I'm different" that gets in the way. I can't completely express in words what it is but it's always there.
I appreciate that. Feel free to PM me if you want.
11 Oct 2009, 1:23 am
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