DrewMack wrote:
Is time accelerated for you in general? People talk about how time flies when their having fun. But for me time is always accelerated... it doesn't seem to slow down. Days seem to fly by especially if it's a routine situation. I see people beg for weekends to get to them as quickly as possible. But I find that weekends are here and over before I realize to enjoy them. Time just seems to get quicker, weeks tend to feel like days, months are like weeks. A year of time from my perspective does not seem like a lot of time. Things need to be different for me, for time to seem like its slowing. I hate it, I would like days to take longer, I have so much to do. Maybe it's just getting older and the responsibilities that tend to make it feel accelerated. But is this something that people with Autism tend to share?
I have the same exact problem. On weekends I become too aware of the flow of time and it kills me.
I had two breakdowns - in 2006 and 2009 where some switch was flipped in my head and I became ULTRA-aware of time. Both happened after traumatic events. Absolutely horrifying ordeals, where I was losing my sanity, as if the wall people keep between themselves and the world has been shattered for me.
The source of this, at least on weekends, is the mismatch between the life I am supposed to have now, and the life I'm actually living. A practically friendless existence renders life gray, and I struggle with keeping the torch lit.