Do you sometimes NOT want to be Aspie?

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On one side of things getting aid to get back into College has me excited sure. but on the other as I've mention in other topics my Psychology interest was so much It was all I talked about I'd come home do the papers etc. HELL I did a paper over the 2 week holiday break!! ! It's upon now knowing of AS I know of something called a "special interest" and that other people (but with other interest) there interest is all they focus on talk about research etc. Whether I study Psychology/law or whatever I WILL GET OBSESSIVE! It's in my behavior nature! It's what Aspies DO FOR GOD SAKE SHEESH!! !! So while my parents didn't like me getting "too into Psychology" I WILL get into whatever I choose VERY obsessively!! !! It's this trait I kind of am scared of since they didn't like the Psychology obsessiveness they will not like ANY obsessiveness!! ! The poster Willard gave an example of a law student that an Aspie would be interested in one topic (AKA this is how I am) and would have a hard time learning things NOT associated with there specific interest in there field of interest (example only being interest in 1 aspect of law or 1 aspect of Psychology) BUT Willard also mention NT's will just have good study skills and do it for the money etc. (I'd HATE to behave like this and want my passion!! !!) If only my family could accept my special interest and the obsessiveness that comes with it whether that be studying Psychology or some other field.

For me, the good aspects of being an Aspie outweight the bad aspects. I'd rather have Asperger's and be quirky than be normal and mediocre.

I love being obsessive about the things that interest me. If I ever lose my ability to be obsessed I might as well lose my life.

i like me 100 perecent the time

Just for one day, I'd like to be an NT. I'm just curious as to what it would be like and if it really is worth all the fuss over.

Although I am not very fond of the term ‘Aspie’ it seems to be accepted vernacular on this website. I was diagnosed with AS when I was 5 years old, now 21 years old I have gone through many stages of wishing I did not possess the syndrome mainly due to its social impairments and implications. However the one view I support is that Aspergers Syndrome is hardly a ‘disorder’ or ‘disability’ but rather a cognitive point of difference between individuals. I agree with the statement posted in this forum that the advantages outweigh the disadvantages of AS. I may have difficulty making friends and comprehending social interactions on a practical level, which my peers do not; but my peers have difficulty understanding quantum mechanics and mathematical physics, which I do not.

Not really. Sometimes I do seriously envy NTs because they can just go and be social with such ease. But then I realize that I wouldn't want to trade the benefits of being an Aspie for that. I've gotten used to the perks.

I'm no less of a person than an NT. If I want to I can go over to them and join in their conversation that looks like fun. Even if it's really really hard. I want to be able to contain myself and interact with people. It's not that I want to be normal. Not at all. To be honest, I just hate feeling inferior.
Like I always say, I refuse to know my place.

It sucks that your family won't accept your special interest. Though, you're lucky that you have it because it'll make it much easier for you to decide a career path and gain independence.
I suspect that I either have the version described by Tony Atwood, or that I'm an official AS & NT hybrid. I sometimes wish that I cold be either fully AS or fully NT to settle the identity confusion. If I were fully NT other people wouldn't call me weird, but if I were fully AS my special interest would make me be able to figure out what to do for a living, blend in better at autistic groups, and not mind moving out to the middle of nowhere (where most of the interesting outdoor jobs are at). btw, not all NTs get into careers solely for the money. However, if you're NT and don't have a special interest it can be easier to slide down that route.
(As a child there was 1 psychologist that diagnosed me as autistic, another that didn't. As an adult there was 1 psychologist that unexpectedly diagnosed me as having AS, and another one that bridged the gap between the opposing opinions of my previous psychologists by diagnosing me with PDD.)

Yes. Although I realise I wouldn't have intellectual interests if I weren't Aspie, it depresses me becsuse there is little I can do to make myself happier. This guy wanted to go serious with me until I told him I have AS. Since then he hasn't replied to me and I can't sleep well. I also had fainting spells for 2 days (very odd) and my parents want me to do a medical test.

There are undeniably times I wish Western civilization were structured to make my species more comfortable - I will bet originally tropical primates felt that way in the Ice Age. But I would not want to shift out of being able to focus down on languages to be a phatic talker without recognizable interests.

It was funny - the other day I said something that got my wife upset - she thought I was slighting her by saying that she was less Aspie than [name omitted to protect everybody].

From this viewpoint, near the end of my sixth decade, yes - I'd take being normal over being where I am.

Back when I was younger, I liked being who I was, liked being faster on the uptake than the people around me, didn't mind moving on and trying again when they didn't like it so much.

Then there were a couple of decades where I struggled to learn whatever it was I needed to learn to become successful, acceptable, whatever it was I was missing out on. I managed to get back on top of liking who I was every now and then, managed to believe again that maybe this time it would work.

Then I hit the diagnosis, and it shattered my world. I've pieced it together again but the cracks still show. Worse, I know they're there and what they are, and I'm sensitised to the rejection that's automatic from the people around me. I still have extraordinary skills, but life has passed me by.

Not really. I love my quirky kinks.

only times after meltdown..im sure many agree

I think that sometimes, when things get really bad; like when the government's threatening to throw me out on the street, or I've just had a public meltdown, or I'm so overwhelmed I can't talk. But the thought that comes immediately afterward is always, "But if you weren't like this, you wouldn't be yourself at all." And then I refocus and I realize that there are more important things than not being disabled... and that a lot of the trouble I get doesn't come from autism in the first place; my autism doesn't magically reach out and turn the government into a bunch of suspicious penny-pinchers, after all...