What Song Reminds you most of Your AS?

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I just had a random thought after listening to R.E.M.'s Losing My Religion and what came to my mind was this kinda reminds me of my Asperger's, So I'm curious to see what song that reminds you guys (and girls) of WP of your Asperger's or any other ASD (NT are also welcome comment on this as well .)

I interested in seeing the variety of the types of music that people like out there.

Institutionalized by Suicidal Tendencies

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UuOmsGXznHU

Sometimes I try to do things, and it just don't turn out the way I wanted to
and I get real frustrated, it's like, I take my time and I try real hard, but
no matter what I do and no matter what I try it never works out, it's like I
concentrate on it real hard, but it never works out, it's like I need some
time to figure these things out, but there's always someone there going:
- Hey Mike, you know, we been noticing you've been having alot of problems
lately, you know, and like maybe you should talk about it, you'd feel alot
better.
And I go:
- No, it's ok, I now have some problems, I'll figure it out myself, just
leave me alone I'll figure it out.
And they go:
- Why don't you talk about it, you'll feel alot better?
And I go:
- No, I don't want to, just leave me alone, I'll figure it out myself!
And they keep on bugging me and it builds up inside, it builds up inside...

So you're gonna be institutionalized
You'll come out brainwashed with bloodshot eyes
You won't have any say
They'll brainwash you until you see their way

I'm not crazy - institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
You're driving me crazy - institutionalized

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself

I was sitting in my room, and I was like staring at the walls thinking about
everything but then again I was thinking about nothing, and then my mom came
in and I didn't notice she was there and she calls my name and I didn't hear
her and then she started screaming:
- Mike, Mike!
And I go:
- What, what's the matter?
She goes:
- What's the matter with you?
I say:
- Nothing mom.
She goes:
- Don't tell me nothing, you're on drugs!
I go:
- No mom, I'm not on drugs, I'm ok, I'm just thinking, you know, why don't
you get me a Pepsi?
She goes:
- No, you're on drugs, you're crazy, normal people won't be acting that way!
I go:
- Mom, I'm all right, I'm just thinking, you know, so why don't you, like
give me a Pepsi?
And she goes:
- No, you're crazy!
All I wanted was a Pepsi, just one Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me,
just one Pepsi.

They give you a white shirt with long sleeves
Tied around you're back, you're treated like thieves
Drug you up because they're lazy
It's too much work to help a crazy

I'm not crazy - institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
You're driving me crazy - institutionalized

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself

I was sitting in my room and my mom and my dad came in and they pulled up a
chair and they sat down, they go:
- Mike, we need to talk to you.
And I said:
- Okay, what's the matter?
They go:
- Well me and your mom, we been noticing lately you've been having alot of
problems, and you haven't been acting like yourself, and we're afraid that
you're going to hurt somebody, and we're afraid that you're gonna hurt
yourself, so we decided that it would be in your best interest if we put
you somewhere where you could get the help that you need...
And I said:
- Wait, what are we talking about?! We decided?! My best interest?! How can
you know, how can you say what my best interest is? What are you trying to
say? I'm crazy? When I went to your schools, I went to your churches, I
went to your institutional learning facilities. So how can you say that I'm
crazy?

They say they're gonna fix my brain
Alleviate my suffering and my pain
But by the time they fix my head
Mentally I'll be dead

I'm not crazy - institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
You're driving me crazy - institutionalized

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself

"Somebody Hates Me" by Reel Big Fish

i just made an enemy of someone i don't know
and they are upset about somethin' that i
must have done. it really doesn't make much
sense well i've got no statement in my defense

i know, no matter what no matter who no
matter what i do, somebody hates me, and i
hate somebody too.

did you misunderstand
something that i did or was there one of my
jokes that you didn't get or do you think
you've got
the way i think all figured out.
what did i say, to make you feel i'm not cool
now?

i know, no matter what no matter who no
matter what i do, somebody hates me, and i
hate somebody too.

i know its wrong, but i do
it to and i guess i should say, don't let it get
to you.

i know, no matter what no matter who
no matter what i do somebody hates me and i
hate somebody too somebody like you.

"Unwell" by Matchbox Twenty

All day, staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night, hearings voices telling me that I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on, feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why

[Chorus]
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Me, talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking 'bout me
And I can hear them whisper, and it makes me think
There must be wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking somehow
I've lost my mind

[Chorus]

I've been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah they're taking me away...

[Chorus, fade out]

Anything by the Talking Heads, not necessarily because of the content, but because David Byrne has Asperger's. Although this lyric from Psycho Killer is very Aspie-ish: You're talking a lot, but you're not saying anything! When I have nothing to say, my lips are sealed. Say something once, why say it again?

Also, "Then He Kissed Me" by The Crystals because it makes me stim very heavily (rocking side-to-side) and the one time I heard it in public, in a random Taco Bell in Athens (Georgia, not Greece), it made me do my "autistic arms", which is my happy stim. I just really really like that song for some reason.

"something i can never have" by NIN


M.

I recently went to a show and was turned on to this band called 零壹 (Ling Yi or Voodoo Kungfu). I've never been so moved by a band before in my life. The vocals describe my life and my struggle with Asperger's. The music is lonely, confused, and at times filled with frustration and rage and it describes my life as I try to make sense of the organized chaos around me.

I never felt so at peace and happy as I did during their show.

I wasn't at this show. I didn't find about them for another 3 years but this video does have pretty good sound.

Ling Yi video on sina.com

This is from the show I was introduced to 零壹
video from youku.com

"I Know You" by Henry Rollins


I know you
You were too short
You had bad skin
You couldn't talk to them very well
Words didn't seem to work
They lied when they came out of your mouth

You tried so hard to understand them
You wanted to be part of what was happening
You saw them having fun
And it seemed like such a mystery
Almost magic

Made you think that there was something wrong with you
You'd look in the mirror and try to find it
You thought that you were ugly
And that everyone was looking at you

So you learned to be invisible
To look down
To avoid conversation

The hours, days, weekends
Ah, the weekend nights alone
Where were you?
In the basement?
In the attic?
In your room?
Working some job - just to have something to do.
Just to have a place to put yourself
Just to have a way to get away from them
A chance to get away from the ones that made you feel
so strange and ill at ease inside yourself

Did you ever get invited to one of their parties?
You sat and wondered if you would go or not
For hours you imagined the scenarios that might transpire
They would laugh at you
If you would know what to do
If you'd have the right things on
If they would notice that you came from a different planet

Did you get all brave in your thoughts?
Like you going to be able to go in there and deal with it
and have a great time.
Did you think that you might be the life of the party?
That all these people were gonna talk to you and you
would find out that you were wrong?
That you had a lot of friends and you weren't so
strange after all?

Did you end up going?
Did they mess with you?
Did they single you out?
Did you find out that you were invited because they
thought you were so weird?

Yeah, I think I know you
You spent a lot of time full of hate
A hate that was pure sunshine
A hate that saw for miles
A hate that kept you up at night
A hate that filled your every waking moment
A hate that carried you for a long time

Yes, I think I know you
You couldn't figure out what they saw in the way they lived

Home was not home
Your room was home
A corner was home
The place they weren't, that was home

I know you

You're sensitive and you hide it because you fear
getting stepped on one more time
It seems that when you show a part of yourself that is
the least bit vulnerable someone takes advantage of you
One of them steps on you

They mistake kindliness for weakness
But you know the difference
You've been the brunt of their weakness for years
And strength is something you know a bit about because
you had to be strong to keep yourself alive

You know yourself very well now
And you don't trust people
You know them too well

You try to find that special person
Someone you can be with
Someone you can touch
Someone you can talk to
Someone you don't feel so strange around
And you find that they don't really exist
You feel closer to people on movie screens

Yeah, I think I know you
You spend a lot of time daydreaming
And people have made comment to that effect
Telling you that you're self involved, and self centred

But they don't know, do they?
About the long night shifts alone
About the years of keeping yourself company
All the nights you wrapped your arms around yourself
so you could imagine someone holding you
The hours of indecision, self doubt
The intense depression
The blinding hate
The rage that made you stagger
The devastation of rejection

Well, maybe they do know
But if they do, they sure do a good job of hiding it
It astounds you how they can be so smooth
How they seem to pass through life as if life itself
was some divine gift
And it infuriates you to watch yourself with your
apparent skill at finding every way possible to screw it up

For you life is a long trip
Terrifying and wonderful
Birds sing to you at night
The rain and the sun the changing seasons are true friends
Solitude is a hard won ally, faithful and patient

Yeah, I think I know you

My friend (NT) says this song.............

I will watch you in the darkness
Show you love will see you through
When the bad dreams wake you crying
I'll show you all love can do
All love can do

I will watch by the night
Hold you in my arms
Give you dreams where no one will be
I will watch through the dark
Till the morning comes

For the lights will take you
Through the night to see
All love, showing us all love can be

I will guard you with my bright wings
Stay till your heart learns to see
All love can be


[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n2GS_a0GlGg&feature=PlayList&p=BBE0AAE61D5D336C&playnext_from=PL&index=22&playnext=20[/youtube]

I can think of one song rite now called "10,000 Friends On MySpace" by Project Sisyphus. I can relate to this because I have problems making friends offline due to my AS & other issues & I spend quite a lot of time on social sites or boards. I don't use MySpace much & only have a few friends on it thou Plus one of my special interest is dorky comedy music like this

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dxfirC20Wqc[/youtube]
I've got 10,000 friends on MySpace
I obsessively add more
And they damn well better rank me
In their Top 24
I've got 10,000 friends on MySpace
So I matter on the Net
I've got 10,000 friends on MySpace
But none in real life yet

My friends adore my profile
And my narcissistic blog
With excruciating details
Of my digestion and my dog
My friends all say I'm sexy
So thank God we've never met
I've got 10,000 friends on MySpace
But none in real life yet

Friend me! Friend me! Friend me, baby!
Add me! Add me! Click me please!
Never mind that most of these people
Are bands and fake celebrities

My 10,000 friends on MySpace
Give me kudos and send smiles
I pretend they're neurosurgeons
I'm afraid they're pedophiles
Don't say the world is out there waiting
'Cause I consider that a threat
I've got 10,000 friends on MySpace
But none in real life yet

Friend me! Friend me! Friend me, baby!
Boost my crippled vanity!
I rant and rave about the mainstream media
But ache for them to notice me

Friend me! Friend me! Friend me, baby!
Click me! Click me! Boost my views!
I'll sit here and keep Refreshing
It's my favorite form of self-abuse

My parents and my counselors
Say I need to quit this scene
For something less addictive
Like Methamphetamine
But my 10,000 friends on MySpace
Provide my only self-respect
I've got 10,000 friends on MySpace
But none in real life yet

it was tough for me to think about this because music is so escapist for me I don't relate it to this blasted disorder if I can help it.

the mountains win again by blues traveler

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G4OTDztS_iA[/youtube]

yep definitely this one I am so depressed now. f*ckkkkkkkkkk.

just for good measure then to counteract

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RRBVJLBfQws[/youtube]

Creep by Radiohead

"Slow Bleed" - TFK

At times I find my mind unwinds and I don't think when I walk,
Run into things and fall down
It's coming around again and I've found sometimes
I don't think when I talk
And put my foot in my mouth
And sometimes when I, I look at me
And wish I could be somebody else
Sometimes I throw myself and let go, but never no
Intention to see a picture of me and trap myself

All this time, we've been mislead,
...Does anyone care at all?

[Chorus]
Sometimes I fall asleep and then I lose control
I try to find my way out without letting go
And will I lose my mind if it comes back this time?
If i dont turn out perfect will you be a friend of mine?

It's coming around again and i've found sometimes I sit
When I should get up and just walk away
Sometimes I pretend and act like I do
But don't listen to a word you say
And sometimes when I start talking out loud
Should just shut my mouth and walk away
Sometimes I feel like maybe it's real and think like nobody else
Too close to myself and suffocate

Are you ready to crawl out?
Are you ready to take my hand and see?
Are you ready to crawl out?
From within the slow bleed?
From within the slow bleed?
From within the slow bleed?
Take this away from me

'Not Ready Yet' by Eels

There's a world outside
And I know 'cause I've heard talk
In my sweetest dream
I would go out for a walk

But I don't think I'm ready yet
I'm not feeling up to it now
Just not that steady yet
And I don't need you telling me how

There's some happiness
And my stone face cracks again
Maybe some time sooner or later

But I don't think I'm ready yet
Not feeling up to it now
Just not that steady yet
And I don't need you telling me how

So if I leave my room
Don't you tell me to lighten up
Maybe some time sooner or later

But I don't think I'm ready yet
Not feeling up to it now
Just not that steady yet
And I don't need you telling me how
I don't need you telling me how
I don't need you telling me how
I don't need you telling me how

I don't need you telling me how
I don't need you telling me how
I don't need you telling me how

No Regrets by Aseop Rock

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d0VQEfbMwb4

No doubt this is about an kid with AS, inspiring yet depressing because I had a relationship were I was Rico and sadly no more.

Now every month or so, she'd get a knock upon the front door
Just one of the neighbors,
Actin nice, although she was a strange girl really, they would
Say, "Hey Lucy, wanna join me for some lunch??"
Lucy would smile and say "I'm busy, thank you much"
And they would make a weird face the second the door shut
And run and tell their friends how truly crazy Lucy was
And lucy knew what people thought but didn't care
Cuz while they spread their rumors through the street
She'd paint another masterpiece

Lucy had very little contact with the folks outside her cubicle day
But she found it suitable, and she liked it that way
She had a man now: Rico, similar, hermit
They would only see each other once or twice a week on purpose
They appreciated space and Rico was an artist too
So they'd connect on saturdays to share the pictures that they drew

"I am a rock" Simon & Garfunkle

A winter's day
In a deep and dark December;
I am alone,
Gazing from my window to the streets below
On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

I've built walls,
A fortress deep and mighty,
That none may penetrate.
I have no need of friendship; friendship causes pain.
It's laughter and it's loving I disdain.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

Don't talk of love,
But I've heard the words before;
It's sleeping in my memory.
I won't disturb the slumber of feelings that have died.
If I never loved I never would have cried.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

I have my books
And my poetry to protect me;
I am shielded in my armor,
Hiding in my room, safe within my womb.
I touch no one and no one touches me.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

And a rock feels no pain;
And an island never cries.

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/s/simon+and+garfunkel/#share