Chaincase wrote:
Hi. I have been reading and reading for a long time. Don't usually post anywhere but this is different. I have known forever that I am wierd in alot of ways comparative to others. Always suspected there was something missing, like having tunnel vision but vaugely aware that there is a periphery. As Bruce Willis' character says in the movie Unbreakable "I just don't feel right." This feels right. This explains alot. I think. Not sure where I fall in presently on the spectrum and not sure I need to find out specifically. For 30 years I have been depressed, scared, cynical and alone though surrounded by others. Now I can be all that with a targeted audience to complain about it to! And I thank and apologise in advance to all of you who subject yourselves to my posts. But mostly thank you all as I am finding so much value in what I am finding on this and other sites.
Chaincase, this post nailed it about as close as anything I've ever read. It's been forever since I've felt like I've fit in anywhere, the only exception being when I'm working. If I had my way, that's all I'd ever do. In the past several months I've learned so much about myself and it all fit into place. I'm still a little bitter about being made the odd man out all these years, but I'll get over it. I have my work after all.