Hi I was diagnosed wrongly at age 8 I believe with Aspergers and my childhood Psychiatrist said I was one the 3rd ever case he knew about at that time I am now 25 and it seems in the last 13 years it went from being rare and noone knowing what it is to everyone has at least one friend with it and everyone knows what it is
Anthony Warren the 2nd in charge last I knew with ASPECT in Australia was the person who correctly diagognosed me as Aspergers when I was 12 and he was low down in the company at the time my mother rang aspect a year or 2 ago and guess what? after 13 years the guy still remembers me...
anyway my life story lol raise by my Nan with my mother taking me back for maybe a 6 month period every few years then giving me back to Nan saying "do you want this brat back?" went to about 12 primary schools in total then a year at normal high school before mum pulled me out to go to a special school called Prince Henry SSP on the grounds of Prince Henry Hospital my mothers first husband threw us out when mum couldn't have his kids and used to beat me with the buckle end of a belt and her 2nd husband atm is like 30 years older than her and an alchoholic
I ended up spending 2 years to do my year 9 school work through distance education due to the school only doing an hour of school work a day I ended up getting a year 10 generic life skills certificate and leaving school and doing and failing tafe courses for years in IT
moved out of home a few years ago and up until that time I never lifted a finger around the house so am not used to cleaning up after myself and I got bad vision thats getting worse I used to read novels from a young age even adult and young adult novels from like 5 years old could read a 400 page book in a day without moving
after my vision went bad I turned to gaming with WoW and other MMO's and such
i've always loved Ancient Egypt, Computers, Dinosaurs, Reading and games
since I got heavy into gaming my money has been bad since I suck at budgets and also my department of housing unit is putrid literally pigs live cleaner than me the cleaning gets away from me every dish in my kitchen is dirty and theres rubbish all over the place roaches fry my PC every few weeks and I have to repair and my teeth are falling apart cause I either forget to clean them or say i'll do it later
I tend to have a whining voice that gives my Nan and everyone else a migraine instantly and i'd rather complain about stuff for 3 hours and then kinda refuse help in the end once someone offers just to shut me up rather than ask for help which people are more than happy to give
i'm overweight and unfit, hardly ever leave my unit and my sleeping patterns are stuffed
i'm so skrewed up and have no idea how to get myself back on track
to add insult to injury the games I used to love have become boring due to playing them all so much but i'm so out of touch with reality that I don't know what to do other than sit at my PC all day especially considering I have a grand total of maybe a half dozen people and tend to get on with 10 and 12 year olds due to me love of games and with old people due to being raised by my Nan and don't know the first thing about talking with people my own age
when the few girls that have ever flirted with me flirted I either am so shocked i'm speechless or don't know what to do or don't notice they were flirting till the next day
certain Aspergers people i've met say thier lifes skrewed up and when I tell them half of this story thier in tears over how stuffed my lifes been its painful
the one thing in the last while thats finally made me want to get help is that I had pains for 3 hours near my heart and went to hospital in am ambulence it wasn't my heart and at 2am I had to call my friend/church minister from the hospital for a lift home due to no money for a taxi and they were not pleased
I also don't know how to find a job that suits me cause if its not something I enjoy I can't seem to stick at it so i'm currently on a disabled pension
if anyones actually made it through this wall of text any advice?
if anyone has actually read this wall of text got any advice for me?
23 Sep 2010, 10:50 am
