For purposes of interacting with people on the spectrum, I'm okay with calling myself autistic. In the real world, though, I think the term autistic may produce a different meaning. For example, I used to think of an autistic person as "a person who hardly ever communicates, or does so in incoherent sounds or unusual actions, a person who gazes at objects all the time even when spoken to, a person who does repeated odd things with his arms and hands." I used to go to school with many autistic students, and it wasn't until recently that I've come across the concepts of high-functioning autism.
Though we are on the autistic spectrum, I think high-functioning autism and asperger's syndrome and related conditions should just be called the asperger spectrum or something. I think, for many people, the term autism can be really confusing, especially if they don't understand it. I believe that classical autism is far more debilitating to have, though those who do have it probably don't even recognize it's debilitating, but to those that are around them, it can be far more harder to deal with.
I believe that having AS is a part of who I am. Reading about it gave me meaning to some of my differences, particularly those that would not be qualified as attention-deficit, and those that ended up having me misdiagnosed as schizophrenic. I've always accepted my differences, but there are those few symptoms that I wish I did not have. Other symptoms, if I should even call them symptoms, I do enjoy. Like, I can get extremely interested in things, more so than typical people, and I get excited over them, and I like the emotional high I get.
- Ray M -