stardraigh wrote:
I don't crossdress, but I used to. I am a pre-op MTF Transsexual, but I hardly ever dress up anymore. I have the clothes for it. I don't anymore because I'm not supposed to wear a wig on my head or do anything that can irritate the scalp like wear a hat while getting these treatments for getting my hair back. It's kind of depressing that while attempting to bring my outward body image in line with my internal self view, I actually end up in this situation where it seems counter intuitive. Regardless, I try to not let it bother me. I'm a fairly patient person. I just feel so ugly when I dress up without a full head of hair that I avoid looking at myself in the mirror unless I have to, and it's easier to not dress up. In guy mode, I wear the same five shirts and five pairs of pants every week. I've been on HRT so long that I do have boobs that are very noticable, so I sometimes wear a bra, but I'm not out at work, so I have to do things to disguise it so I don't draw unwanted social interaction.
I knew a transwoman over the internet that wasn't out at work. When she was presenting as female she wore a bra. When she was presenting as male at work she wore a binder. It's funny how something that is meant for FTMs (a binder) can be useful for MTFs in certain situations. I'm not sure if it would inhibit breast growth while on hormones though. Either way I never have and never will use one because I don't need to look like a guy.