I'm really confused here.
I don't know whether my ''manic episodes'' are typical AS outbursts, or if it's Bipolar. So I went to the doctors, and got myself assessed, and he said I do not have Bipolar at all, and it is just an anxiety slash anger disorder (which does explain a lot).
But a lot of my outbursts involve manic behaviour, like for example, (this is the embarrassing part) I have ran across the settee then across the other settee, manically abusing myself. My mum stood back and was really freaked out and she said, ''blimey, mate - you need help!'' Then I started physically beating myself up and yelling that I hate myself more than anybody else in the world (I even hate myself more than I hate the government - w*kers, how dare they cut back my bus service!! !). Anyway, so I don't know if this sounds like Bipolar or just an angry AS-related outburst.
I never harm any other people or any objects when I am angry - all I do is slap myself. My anger and manic meltdowns seems to trigger off when something is worrying me and there's not a solution to it.
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