How often do you wish you were an NT?

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It seems pretty regular for me. I wish I could be more like my friends and the people I see. Sometimes I get all high and mighty about being an Aspie, but more often I just desire to be normal.

Hardly ever.

Never.

The problems I face due to having AS is not down to AS as much as it is with the rubbish way in which the world works.

Not often, but I used to.

Every f#cking day I am around other people or see a couple in an embrace. I will always wonder what my life would have been like if I was born normal. I marvel at how easy life is for the NTs is compared to how hard I find everything. Even shaking some as*hole's hand ruins the day for me.

Never. I used to wish that I had made different choices so my life would have turned out better but now I realize that it wasn't my choices that were the problem. Also, I don't see the point of wanting to be someone else just because that someone else might be more social or whatever.

Used do that alot. Now, less. Being NT means you have over defects, which can often be worse than AS. It's like a gambling machine. You trade your flaw and you don't know what you get. You might score and get something less critical, but you might as well end up deaf or blind.

Life is not fair.

Many years ago before I knew anything about my condition I would often yearn to be like other people.

These days I do not waste a moment on things which will never happen. You have to make the best of what you've got.

Uh, every single second of the day.

OK, to be more specific, each time my life reaches an awkward time where I don't know which way to turn to. OK, NTs have this too (probably even more so than me, since I follow my strict routine). I mean, for example, I especially wish I was NT at this moment because my bus service is changing and so are all the drivers that have always drove this bus, and buses and bus-drivers are what I'm obsessed with, and I can't cope with this change and losing the people I'm obsessed with (all you Aspies must know how I feel there.) If I was NT, I don't think this would have affected me so much, because they always just say, ''well as long as there is a bus service''. But for me, losing people I'm obsessed with and having to quickly adapt to all these new times makes it feel like the end of the world.

And I wish I was NT every second of every day because people keep staring at me in the street even though I dress normal and act normal, and I really cannot put up with this any longer. I'm so paranoid that I cry my eyes out when I get home, and feel all afraid of going back out.

I want to be NT. I f*****g hate my life, and I don't know why the f**k god has to give me this awful diabolical disability, disabling me from looking normal even though I know I act normal. I feel like strangers know me. OH I WISH I WAS NT!! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! *wimpering out of desperation*

The only time... is when my words get stuck in my throat due to anxiety or not knowing how to express all those feelings inside of me..

But I've coped up with it so I am ok...

The social part of NT-ness, yes. But even then I bet there are a lot of NT's that can't socialize.

Hell, the whole NT I wish to be a lot, since right now I'm not in a happy position to say I'm completely satisfied with who I am.

Never. I'm happy with myself just the way I am and if other people cannot accept it, that is their problem not mine.

I have never wished to be NT after I learned about AS, and I never wanted to be like 'everyone else' before that.

Now? Never. I used to try to be what everyone wanted me to be, which was a "prefect, ordinary person." I felt even more miserable doing that. When I finally decided to accept myself and just be who I am and do what I want to do (school majors and things like that), I started to feel like a much happier person. I am very happy with who I am now, and then I found out I have AS, and I felt even better. I wouldn't change who I am for anything.

My life would be much easier as an NT that's for sure, but I don't really want that.

Never.
The worst of my suffering was from being undiagnosed, and misdiagnosed. Finally understanding MYSELF was all I really wanted. For me, wishing to be NT is wishing to be a different person, which I literally cannot imagine. Just like I can't imagine being a chair or a plant.

(Although I guess some people CAN imagine being a chair or a plant. At least, they SAY they can, but I really think they're imagining themselves being a chair or a plant, which I see as different. I guess a lot of people don't make that distinction, but it seems a very important one to me! The idea that I could have different thoughts and feelings than I do is ridiculous, but i guess that's what makes me autistic. heh.)