Why do I have no girlfriend and no friends?

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This is the part I have never gotten. I am kind, sensitive, caring, loving, considerate, thoughtful, and decent in every possible way. Yet, none of thing have mattered. The facts are that I have both autism and odd parentage. My parents are odd, and I am odd. I also have autism, which means that I lose out big time on any hope of a social status where I can find some personal happiness.
During the 70s and 80s, America was still in this "laissez-faire, don't trust the Man attitude" left over from the 60s. People pretended still to drop out and live the life. So, in these libertarian times it was very lonely, because if you weren't "with it", you were out of it. Then, the 90s rolled in. The Left had become the Right. Now, everyone was the enemy and everyone was threatening someone's rights and welfare. There were now only a few "disabled groups", which we were supposed to feel guilty about 24/7. Everything had an answer, and everything had a reason, and that was the worst thing ever. In the old days, you could hang back and say people are busy having fun, etc. Now, it was like I was trapped in a society where one's "ps" and "qs" had to be minded all the time.
Things had changed very badly for me on the men vs. women thing. In the old days, a man could put on an act to impress some woman. It was nonsense, but at least the guy had a chance to impress. Then, women said "We don't need men, except one that we choose completely on our own". It was all heralded as a great step forward and triumph for women. Then, I said "Wait. Donald Trump is sitting pretty, but I am not completely outcast and outlawed. I am nothing now, because women now have complete choice over everything, and that means a man like myself has zero clout".
Then, I saw the results. When I was younger I had several dates that never panned out. They all dissolved in disaster.
I hate to say it, but I only found ugly women, who if ugly was okay to a lonely, desperate man, their personality wasn't. They were paranoid, neurotic, judgemental, and too demanding. They were so sure that everything man was "bad" that they misunderstood and misread me completely. They thought that because I wasn't immediately smitten by them for eternity that this meant "hasta la vista". But it wasn't that. I was confused. I didn't even know them. I had only gone out on a date. I was afraid that if I saw them in the street, I wouldn't remember their name. I wanted to say that I was really a nice guy, and that I really was not even in a position to be a Don Juan. C'mon. I was lucky to even get a first date.
Then, when I became an adult I was completely isolated and pushed out. No longer was it the 50s, where a woman wanted just about any man. No, they had their careers, and if they did choose someone, it would be their "Ken Doll". I felt like women were worse than the worst job interview. At least, I got hired. Well, with women, they wanted some prince to swoop down and wow them. And I said "that ain't me". I am not even close to being that prince. I am an amateur in that department.
Then, things became even worse. Now, it was all based upon alliances, position, and place. I have given up that I will ever find someone. What I fear the most is clinging to some woman, and being really hurt. Well, how can you blame me? I haven't been given enough chances. People say "It is worse to love and lose than to not try at all" nowadays. Wow! I have to disagree. If you don't get hurt in relationships then you will never eventually get to a "happy place". You can't. It's impossible.
Why do I have no friends, either? Wow. I don't know. People say "change" is good. I hate it. I wish things didn't change, because keeping things the same is the only chance I have. The only chance I have of ever finding love in this World is if there is a chance. And in my lifetime, with all bitterness, I say I have never been given a chance. Every sunshine has been ripped away from me far too early. I wander this Earth in a World that won't give me any mercy, any peace, and any chance to have an opportunity to make things happen .

In the course of your life, you have come to many conclusions about men, women, and society in general, and you have described them in your post. These assumptions are generally either gross generalizations or outright incorrect, and they serve you not well. Others will come to point out specifics (I hope), but it's in your best interests to re-examine some of the views you hold and see if maybe you aren't your own worst enemy in this case.

Pop psychology, blame the victim will not work with me. I am the victim of gross, lifelong injustice. Individuals have been brainwashed to believe that they are "bad" people and wrong. It was called the "Cultural Revolution" in China. The Maoists would have never broken me, and neither can you. So, you may think you are being helpful, but you are not. "I am my best friend", and if you think differently, maybe you should look at the American Flag and what that red, white, and blue represents. Then, lecture me. You can't. I am red, white, and blue through and through. I am individual. I do not bow to society. I bow to my heart and conscience. I am a great man and a great American. Love it or leave it.

I don't know you, but you appear to be very angry. That anger will never serve you well. It will turn upon you and consume you. You will not find peace until you address that anger within. I wish you luck.

Moving from GAD to... the haven?

Because noone can understand your astounding intelligence? Because you were given an amazing gift that allows you to percive things in a revolutionary way? Who cares if you have friends, evreyone will want to be your friend when you finally find someone who can decode your personality to see the unique person underneath.Just remember, when your feeling alone, watching normal people chatting and socializing, that someday, you will make a diffrence. Ask yourself this: Will they?

Seeing as I'm a woman, I'll give you a womans view on it.

Women like to feel good, like to feel special, and like to feel cared for, when in any relationship with a partner. If they dont feel that way, while in your company, you might not be able to sustain a relationship with them. Give up your anger, and chill out a bit, calm down, and then maybe join a dating website online and get to know a woman a bit first, before meeting them in the flesh. Correspond online first, and show interest in them , and keep the anger side out of the conversation and you may stand more of a chance with them.
good luck.

You know, Wizynoo does make a very enticing point...