Aspie? Maybe.

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Joined: 2 Aug 2011
Age: 41
Gender: Female
Posts: 4

03 Aug 2011, 12:03 am

Hi all. I'm not really sure WHY I'm posting here (let's call it sleep induced hysteria), but here I am.
I've been misdiagnosed in the past (Bi-Polar at 19), and just re-started therapy for depression, only to find out I'm aspie. Maybe.
My therapist is an amazing woman who's Aspie herself, very easy to talk to, and lets me ramble for what seems like forever.
After lots of research, I think she's hit the nail on the head. I'm an odd duck. I know I am.
I'm tattoo'd and pierced, a single mom of two with bad relationship history, unemployed because I just can't seem to find the right job, and somehow both starved for affection and totally oblivious of how to socially interact with people to the point where I just don't WANT to deal with 'normal' people...

It's late at night, I'm really disgusted with myself (for being me!), and probably going to sign off for the night and hit the sack after posting this, but I could really use some support. The only people who know about my Aspie, Maybe status right now are my fiance, my parents (kindof, I e-mailed them), a friend (one of my only ones) and my therapist. I'm afraid to post it on my facebook.

I've tried so hard to 'fit in' with other people that I'm terrified that admitting I'm even MORE different will scare them all off... worse than I already do.

I also started a wordpress blog after taking an aspie vs. neurotyp quiz... if anyone cares to, it's on wordpress (just search Aspiemaybe and you should find me, the site wouldn't let me post the link yet, I'm too 'new') and I would really appreciate knowing that someone, somewhere doesn't think I'm totally nuts, and actually cares to check it out and maybe even comment.

So, hello world... or, hello safest spot I can think of. My name is Aimee, and I'm Aspie, Maybe.