I have this all the time. Since I have found out that people with disabilities give off vibes that we can't escape from, no matter how hard we try to look beautiful and act normal, I have got the feeling that these horrible vibes gives people the impression to pick on me, (yes, even as adults), and it's made me become so anxious now that it's causing all sorts of physical issues, like severe tense pains in my chest, frequent stomachaches, and difficulties swallowing which causes choking. I never had trouble with any of these until I have read about people like me giving off vibes even without doing anything different. It's even affecting some things I do in my sleep. I sleep well, but in the middle of the night I find myself doing odd things when half-asleep (still asleep but awake enough to remember doing), like finding myself out of bed searching for something that's not there, or thinking there are loads of people standing in my room, and actually ''seeing'' all these people, then realising I was just half-awake dreaming. And sometimes I wake up struggling to breathe, and sitting up gasping for air like I'm having a heart attack. I've got to stop doing this, because if I got a boyfriend and I was sleeping in his bed with him, and I started doing these sorts of things, he's going to think I'm crazy. I'm not sure whether to go up the doctors about this or not. I know it's just anxiety-related, but I don't want to take drugs for it because there are a lot of reasons but I can't be bothered to write all down why.
But anyway, that's besides the point. What I'm saying is, I've learnt I give off vibes all the time where ever I go and I feel that people are out to get me because of this. It's making me anxious about starting work, in case people know what a stupid mug I look and so will decide to get me into trouble and get me sacked. And I'm afraid to live on my own, because I will only get a flat, and where I come from, most blocks of flats often have drug-addicts, unemployed dossers, or just generally rough youths living in them, causing trouble somewhere, and I just shudder at the thought of an honest descent vulnerable young girl like me living among people like that ain't going to work. I just know it. I know other unconfident people who has had this sort of thing happen to them, and they're NTs. I'm not being funny, but it seems that I feel more uncomfortable with other girls than I do boys. I find boys don't notice my horrible vibes so much, but girls do. I don't like it. There's no escape. I just feel that people are out to get me, and I wish I just lived on an island with my family and friends and I knew everybody that lived on this island, and there were no rough youths picking on me. I jumped for joy on my last day of school, thinking that all of this teasing and judging me has come to an end, but I've actually found that I'm being laughed at more than I was when I was back at school! Or is it because I've become more anxious?
Anyone else feel the same? Does it cause you physical stress too?
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