What is WRONG with me?

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So, i believe i have AS, I have never had any more than one friend at a time. I have only one interest and my conversation revolves only around that subject (technology) I don't like noise, music, going out with friends or 'chit-chat'. I don't understand other people, i sit and watch over people react to different situations in ways that are inefficient and angry! I can sit still for hours thinking, planning and calculating. I am 14 and do year 10 mathematics, physics, chemistry. In times of sadness (most of the time) I render infinite worlds in my head were I prosper and i am filled with nothing but bliss. I dont understand empathy and have no sympathy for anything but a select few mammals, dogs, cats etc. I dont understand everyone around me acts the way they do. At school people try to have conversations with me just for fun to see how long they can last before i go mute. I find small things annoying like labels are slightly rough pants. I don't get jokes and if i do they are far from funny.

My parents dont understand me and my mum invites people i don't even know to my house from school just so I can socialize.
My mum also forced me to make a facebook account and she wants to me get behavior stickers at school!! !!
I scored 188 for aspie
and 12 for neurotypical on one of the tests i performed.

I constantly hum and talk to loud and i had a mental breakdown then my mouse was sticky.

What do you think is wrong with me?

Nothing is wrong with you. That may come off as cliche and an expected response, but it's true. You're 14, life's a big ball of crap that you don't understand right now, and some people are just plain old cruel. As far as people at school, most of the kids in high school are in the best four years of their life, and I know that because I've seen it so much. They keep thinking they can go around treating people the way they are treating you. But guess what, eventually you grow out of your shell a bit and people like you and me can climb to the top. You don't have to measure your life on the scale everybody else wants you to use. You set your goals, and you become who you want to be. Throughout all my troubles I and happy that I am very empathetic (sometimes), and my sense of humor is practically never-ending within reason and taste. So, i cannot relate to those things specifically, but I can relate to everything else.

I was told many years ago that later in life I would be able to count my true friends on one hand . . . and I probably wouldn't need all my fingers for that. You know what? It's proven true. I thought that was a bad thing at one time, like I was the problem; but I'm not. I'm truly blessed to have one good friend. You'll find good people in this world when you least expect it. Sometimes when you think things are as low as they can get, somebody appears that can pull you out of the crap.

As far as family, they can be a royal pain in the butt for anybody. Family tends to be the least compassionate people in my experience. They care, they love you and would be devastated if anything happened (they really would). But I think they are just harder on you because they love you so much and know what you are capable of more so than even you do at times.

Nothings wrong with you. You were born that way. You have unique advantages and disadvantages. Get to know them, learn to work WITH them instead of assuming something is "wrong", and who knows. You may just be able to conquer the world.

Exactly. Autism isn't a thing that's "wrong with you". An autistic person isn't a damaged typical person, any more than my cat is a damaged dog. An autistic brain is a healthy brain that's wired differently, not a sick one that needs to be fixed.

Autistic brains are like any other human brain in that they are made more efficient by learning. If you are autistic, your best approach is not to try to imitate the typical or to try to hide it, but to gain skills that let you effectively communicate with others, work around whatever impairments you have, and generally adapt to a world that is not set up for autistic people. Depending on how well you can do this on your own, you may or may not need a therapist or counselor to help you. Many of us have counselors, social workers, occupational or speech therapists, or group therapy--and we're not talking Freudian stuff here; the ideal therapy for an autistic person is very much like a more informal, one-on-one or small-group version of taking classes at school. Just like you can learn math or science, you can learn other skills that will be useful to you.

If you think you might have autism, the question to ask yourself is: Do I have real problems in my daily life (they don't have to be severe, but they do have to be there) which are due to these autistic traits? And, if so, do I need help with dealing with them; or might I need help dealing with them in the future as more is expected of me--living on my own, being an employee, going to college? If you do have problems, and you think you might need help, then your parents are a good place to start, but if you cannot get it across to them, then I would suggest a school counselor or a private talk with your family doctor, if you can get it. These people can often help you talk to your parents. A warning: This may get your parents angry at you; but it is really the only way if your parents absolutely refuse to get you an evaluation. Bringing in a neutral third party can often help with negotiations.

You're not the only one wondering this:



But seriously, the above posts are right.

lol @ Jory


and i agree with the above posts

Screw them. If the people around you don't understand how extremely smart and talented you are (you're younger than me, but you're doing much more advanced stuff), then don't bother wasting your time trying to fix your "problem".

Personally, I think you could easily convince your mom to get you in for a diagnosis. Judging from the remarks you made about her forcing you to make a Facebook account, I think she worried about your social life.