A Puppet of Anger

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A week or two, I concluded that anger is not really useful since it literally cannot help you in manners such as computer troubles and social problems. An aggressive spirit wants to solve problems through force. But this is what is troubling me. Whenever I get roped up into a delicate situation, I have the monster inside me, but I can't let it out because it's not meant to be brought out. And, from what I can tell concerning past experiences, whenever something bad happens, I'd feel sick and pathetic because I have anger taking me over for nothing. It won't matter whether I'm anger or not (the situation will happen anyway and I'll appear to have a temper-tantrum), but the beast is very real. I feel this strong desire for an appropriate physical target when angered just so that I can finally torture those that dare oppose me and show the world something to "respect and fear." This feeling is so strong that my anger wants to, if it can, be released from my "useless" corporeal form in the form of a ghost and torture foes by inspiring nightmares so that it can avoid consequences such as looking like a spastic lunatic. I feel like inside me is a hungry animal that will not stop being hostile until it is fed... by the opportunity to finally put enemies through agony and control the way things are with an iron fist. Any suggestions?
Also, I've heard anger is very addictive and that people would love it for something to oppose them just to gain the opportunity to crush them. If this is really true, do these people have the same urge as I do?

i really like the part about having one's anger form up as a ghost that leaves the body and does its dirty work on its target[s], sparing the physical body any angst and bad feelings.

I guess this is what sports involving throwing and punching things are useful for.

Good idea, but would that really work for me? The idea of tackling a person for football or lashing out on a punching bag, neither of which has done anything against me, feels silly and unproductive for me in this case. I only really feel aggressive towards things that actually irritate me or done me wrong.

It is a pretty interesting idea for me too. To put what you said literally, I especially hate it when my body heats up from my rage, which just irritates me even more.