Scared.. warning possibly a trigger

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Wake me up from this nightmare where everyone is hateful and scornful to me in my face
It never ends.

I believe something about me is manipulating people/scaring people away but I think logically from a distant perspective I am becoming psychotic or schizophrenic and need to go to a psychiatrist. asap.

I apologize for the past threads I made and tendency to monologueing... I am not trying to be a drama queen... None of what I experience makes any sense and it's going downhill fast.

Someone please tell me none of this is real and it will get better and my mind will be clear again...

My psychiatrist never lets me talk.. if only she knew all of this what I type about... It's getting really bad.
Please understand!! !! Am I becoming schizophrenic ????

Please don't lock my thread like on the other forum I just wish I had someone to talk to & hug. sigh.

Well, you topic caught my attention, because recently i had some paranoid thoughts that just won't go, i just tried to focus and realized what was really the issue, i knew i was being paranoid, but in the end, the ppl at the bar in front of my house were REALLY making fun of me cause im a little weird, so i tried to stop it, bulked up and told them to f**k off or i would call the cops, it is hard but you can get over it i know it just looks like it never ends, but believe me it does get better, and my psychologist said that an aspie can't be schizophrenic, so try finding the root of your problem and see if it is a real threat or not, i hope i could help more stranger, hugs from an anxious brazilian aspie! (i apologize for any grammar errors :p)

You might have some paranoia but it's hard to tell. There's no way to give a diagnosis over the internet even if we were qualified. Regardless, you definitely need to get to a new psychiatrist, pronto! If you are in the US, you have the right to a second opinion. I almost never say this, but if you can't get a new psychiatrist fast, you may want to consider going to an emergency room and asking for someone to talk to. It won't be as nice of an experience as an office visit but it will get you through. If an ER or psychiatrist wants you to go inpatient, go ahead and do it because they can do things to help you with meds that would be dangerous to do at home, and they get you stable fast that way (I've been in the hospital myself before). That really might be the best option for you at this point.

Thanks... I got a good nites sleep for once in a long time and realize how desperate I sound in that state of mind!! ! Also I do believe it possible for someone labelled AS to develop schizophrenia or a psychotic episode. Especially people vulnerable to extreme stress/anxiety
I am witness to my brain degrading over time, it is that looming fog of being hypersensitive to the environment.. When the fog fully takes over my vision becomes kaleidescopic and I begin visually and tactile hallucinating, my mind goes into bizarre thoughts mode where I don't really believe the 'delusion' but the 'hallucination' or what I 'sense' in my own reality field is backing up a delusional thought. ie I have had peoples face or demeanor change almost demonic before my eyes, and every sense of it involved is backing up what I perceive as it must be real!! ! Anyways I will stop rambling about this because my mind is refreshed for the moment and I should spend that time being productive good day!!
However Imust admit, these incidences where my mind becomes 'kaleidescopic' completely destroy my productivity, socially especially as people can sense that scariness or evil within me... It does make me sad..

That's greaat you got sleep. Don't worry about sounding desperate because you have good reason to be desperate- your condition is and might even constitute a mental health emergency (I can't tell for sure over the internet). You definitely need a new psychiatrist fast, and there is a chance they may wany to work with your meds in a hospital setting, which if you've never been there it's not usually as bad as it sounds. Until you can seek new help, please don't make any drastic decisions or actions without checking someone's opinion first.

John Browning,
Thanks for your advice! I am seeing a uni counselor in 5 days however I think I should make an emergency appt with some one. You suggest I should go to the hospital? I've never been to one for this reason. I have been for a drug OD and was almost sectioned. I don't want to get sectioned. My psychiatrist is always backed up with appts and they no longer have counselors. I am at a dead end here for I don't know how to tell my psych about what is going on except to have the school counsellor tell them.

If you mean getting sectioned in England, then scratch that unless going there is a last resort but do it if you have to, but try to get in voluntarily first. They can get you help but it's apparently not as nice of a place as most US hospitals though you will likely only be there a few days to a week if you go. The only other thing I can suggest is that you call or go see family or someone to talk to for support if you have any such people in your life.

Hey I'm back..
I'm from the US... I almost got put into the mental ward of the hospital last year for drug OD...
Any ways things are calming down...
However I did try weed last week and realized what it would be like to be fullblown insane, with severe paranoia and hallucinations and being frozen in place..
Needless to say I doubt I'll ever do a drug ever again.. However 1 weird effect was the weed improved my memory function for the entire next day but worsened hallucinations like fractals and acid dripping from dry sheets of paper and the walls...

My cognitive function is still degrading... people around me are basicly suspicious I'm becoming or am schizophrenic, i am afraid i might have to quit school or something because of this.. I told the counselor at school about this recent memory/hallucination/paranoia problem like I'm in a living nightmare..

She just told me it's the asperger's social misunderstanding that's causing me to be paranoid and the wellbutrin causing hallucinations...

Ah well at least my depression is gone but the brain fog is so severe it is really really impacting my performance in class as well as my driving, makes me a terrible driver... It was never ever ever this bad
I'm not trying to diagnose myself more or less rambling about what I am sensing is happening here...

Thanks for the advice I am trying to get the counselor to contact my shrink about this. I am afraid of being put on a bad medication though. I have been thru a slot machine of antidepressants already -.-

Oh dude...get to a psychiatrist ASAP. Even if it's not schizophrenia, it sounds like you're experiencing a crisis of some sort. After you see a psychiatrist, see if you can get in with a regular GP. If this isn't normal for you, you may have something going on medically. I had Lyme that presented similarly. And a tip-write down what you're experiencing, either as a "cheat sheet" for your appointment or to hand to your psychiatrist outright. Once you have all the facts written down, you can focus on organizing and communicating instead of remembering.

Interesting you mention lyme because I've been on hikes in the past year where there were lots of ticks