Hi i only found out on Sunday that I'm autistic, and if I hadn't gotten an eating disorder I'd have never gone to the doctors and would never have known!
I'm ovbs, still recovering but it is easier now I know I'm autistic =)
I think it is the need for control, as well as the anxiety of getting fat :/ but its brought on by lots of feelings, very complicated,
message me if you ever want because im recovering atm and would love to know i could help you maybe =)
it is really tough so im sorry to anyone who is going threw/has gone through it!
At the moment its better because im sticking to 5 small meals a day at roughly the same time, and my mum is helping make sure i dont over/under eat - don't worry you wont gain weight from doing this, its the fear of gaining weight which can also make u eat too much when u do finally eat...
Start off small, low-fat things, with no chance of weight-gain, try whole-grain foods like weetabix! Brown bread (not actually fattening) and they keep u fuller longer so u dont have to be anxious when ur hungry all the time x
It helps me that for now my mum is sorting out my dinner every day i have the same diner - lots of vegetables and some fish,
avoid sugary things! they give u more cravings and confuse the system, i know you can do this
the most important thing to do is to remember, no matter how u feel at times, u are beautiful and people and god loves u =) I hope you feel better soon x (And i have faith things will get better for u definitely! =D )
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Beth