TallyMan wrote:
It doesn't generally get in the way. The counting tends to stop when my mind is fully occupied - i.e. very busy concentrating on things such as programming. However, if I watch TV or listen to music or do any sort of manual work the counting resumes. I fall asleep every night while counting, usually the arms/chest one mentioned above. The counting is totally automatic. I have absolutely no control over it. It goes on and on and on.
I asked my GP (doctor) about this endless counting when I was around 17 and he said it was just my brain occupying itself when it had nothing to do. Can't say I found his answer very convincing. This was in the days before the word 'Aspergers' even existed. I count everything: number of paces, number of steps up stairs, number of sides on geometrical objects, number of tiles on a wall, number of rows and columns of said tiles.
One of my more time consuming counts is to pop an image of a three dimensional hypercube into my mind and keep counting the sides of it and doing other things like stretching its sides or even pulling it inside out.
As a small child travelling in my parents car I used to bounce imaginary laser beams from one side of the road to the other, always at the same angle of rebound as collision, counting the number of bounces before the beam failed to bounce because it had shot up someone's driveway or side street. I've been lost in numbers and geometry all my life.
You really wouldn't like to live with my mind. Sometimes it is like a surreal torture chamber!
Endless manipulation of numbers and geometric shapes. I guess this is one of the reasons I'm obsessed with programming - lots of numbers and logic.
How fascinating. Have you never sought a medical opinion after you were 17?
I'm not sure I'd like shapes popping up and spinning around in my head. I tend to get a lot of intrusive thoughts, but they tend to be verbal.
I do seem to like rhythm a lot, and I notice that when I'm bored I make rhythmical noises to fill, I donno, something. I can sit there reading a book, and it's not quite stimulating enough so I'll make noise, sometimes a lot of noise, over long periods.
I used to get told off for making noises at work. Work was so boring, I needed to make a lot of noises. I think it might be a form of 'stimming'
I sometimes count steps when walking, or chops with a knife when preparing food for cooking and things. It's more about rhythm with me though. I suppose numbers are rhythm in a way, frequencies. I wonder if you like rhythm.
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