I did the wrong thing again didn't I

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Okay so this girl in one of my classes (who is very outgoing and basically an adult) sometimes sits at my "table" because her friend sits there.

I must explain: our class is full of four-desk setups,like four desks facing each other, it's like a square. I sit in the back alone, because I don't recognize anyone. This young woman sits at a table close to mine. Since it's empty, she and her friend sometimes sit there. next to and across from me, respectively. Anyways, it looked very bothersome for her, so I MESSAGED HER. SO here goes:





Saturday
Huzaifa Ahmed



You can delete this message at any time if you dont want to read or reply.

Im in your English class and Ive noticed you dont seem to like me sitting back there.
Thank you for being so kind and considerate and patient with people like me.
You are both intuitive AND altruistic. You dont get much of that.

Anyways, since you arent comfortable telling me verbally (i wouldnt be either), please reply tonthis message. I only have the best intentions and I dont wish to bother anyone. Honestly, as fake and insincere I appear, I am just a naive innocent little kid on the inside.
I dont recognize any of the people in this class and that is why i sit back there. Please tell me what to do.


Thank you for reading.

Again, i know someone like you probably has better things to do than take pity on some pathetic little ret*d boy, so just dont respond if you dont want to.

PS I see you know Saif, my childhood friend. we used to be so tight...

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Saturday
Julia Suriano



I don't mind you sitting back there! You should come talk to us! You seem really smart and nice(:

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19 hours ago
Huzaifa Ahmed



Thank you, one more thing I would like to ask is do people "notice" about my issues and/or does my aide make it more obvious?
I can understand how strange this may be for you, especially when i get too personal like this, but please be honest.
Thanks again

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17 hours ago
Julia Suriano



We all have issues and school is supposed to be a fun a safe place(: don't worry about what others think of you






That's the whole thing. I feel like such a ret*d now, because she was so polite about it. She's that type of woman. Especially towards me, who so obviously is socially ret*d. I feel so stupid.

please notice that the biggest part of you social retardatition stems from the fact that you think you have social retardation.

Well at least you messaged her. Would have been better if you talked to her. I can't believe you referred to yourself in it as "pathetic little ret*d boy". You should have just told her you were really shy. And you are not ret*d, from what you have said on here I have thought you are pretty smart, albeit with a few presumptions

And if you used any real names you should probably change them.

When I said here I meant this board, and what did you try to delete?

For the "little ret*d boy" ? I had some moments, some bad passages, where I had a specially low self-esteem and where I did this kind of things often, and I was also feeling like a... I don't know the exact word in English :p

Just calm yourself, think to something else, do your interests or something. And do your best when you'll come talking to her. You'll see, she won't even remember that you said that, so don't make her remember it by saying something related to it, do what you can, and it will be okay.

She could be being nice or maybe she is clueless about how different you really are or you think it's obvious to others you are different when the truth is no one can really tell.

You did perfectly fine. Where's the issue?

The only mistake you made was calling yourself pathetic and ret*d. Neither is true.

She seems really Nice! I would talk to her if I were you~