How do you deal with feeling suicidal?

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I am going to be 22. I am still a virgin, unemployed, anti-social and I have nothing going for me. Father is 51. mom is 58. I had a tough life after I turned 13. I was forced in dangerous settings(juvenile hall, boot camp etc). My father hit me a lot when he lost it. Now I am just anti-social, I keep myself occupied with history. I would love to kill myself, I posted it on Facebook and "my friends" couldn't care less no replies or anything. I m nonexistent. I hate myself and life.I am sick of aspergers. My mind is torture. I can't stop being nervous, paranoid and everything else that comes with terrible disease. Loneliness + Stress = killer. Thank you guy.

Well, you're not alone. Pardon the expression..

I have the unique opportunity of being able to tell you how... in real time. For example right now i'm telling myself it will be gone by morning, and i should just go to bed. On the other hand a small part of me thinks it will just be back later- i'm telling that part to shut up. It's not really listening but it makes me feel better to say it.

Now i'm remembering all the times i've beaten it back before, and what a waste it would be if I were to give up now..

Humanity needs me to fix it, who will take my place if I go? What if my replacement makes it worse? If you want something done right..

Maybe soulmates do exist? I can't deprive someone of my everlasting company!

Is all this real? Am I ready to go? What will I miss? Will anyone remember me?

...Actually. Scratch that last one.. I shot a model rocket at someone by accident one time.


Ah. Humor. Humor has always been good to me.

I think I will prove the small voice wrong now. Goodnight!

-And "walk the hall with two exits, both in case of fire and also in case of the random urge to apply freewill. '-C-p-p

A lot of people, especially aspies, use the term "antisocial" to describe themselves. Someone who is antisocial borders on being pyschotic and sociopathic. What we really are is non social. The difference? We actually want company but have a hard time achieving it for whatever reasons (shyness, avoidant personality disorder, ASD, etc). Antisocial folks don't want to have anything to do with people and would therefore never register or post on a site like WP. If it's any consolation, a lot of folks - myself included - are lonely as heck. I have an extremely hard time going out to socialize with people. It's a problem because I'm missing out on life and what it has to offer. I do think some kind of antidepressant will help so I plan to see a neurologist or psychiatist soon to stabilize this issue. I hope this helps you, too.

I have my days when I am anti-social some days you can't shut me up I think mood swings have something to do with it.

I was thinking about suicide too but for me it's because of money, in rest i accepted my loneliness and that i'm different than others & they can't accept me for what i am. I guess i'll be a black sheep all my life. If i wasn't so afraid of death, i would have been committed suicide at any time. Too bad euthanasia is not allowed for suicidal folks too. This doesn't helps at all, they just let people to die in terrible ways.

So what you're still a virgin. C'mon, this bothers you so much? When i was still a virgin i felt proud and i wanted to remain so for all my life. But at the age of 21 i have met an as*hole and i lost it. Though i don't regret it so much, he was good in bed

Btw, next time when you think about suicide, think about the mysteries of life - life has a lot of mysteries to be unfolded. Sometimes i like to think about myself that i'm in a sort of a game or an experiment and all this s**t is just a test. We know very little about our lives here on earth.

Ugh...I hate it when I'm in a situation like yours. From my experience, I can assure you that you're guaranteed change throughout your life. Try not to get stuck in a rut, yeah? Distract yourself with something that fully grabs your attention. Getting fully distracted for even a few minutes can really help to shift your perspective a bit. If you like, you can private message me. I'm not usually the social type, but if you need a friend, feel free to message me

I'm 29, a virgin, unemployed, have a stutter and attempted suicide after I lost my job.

40mg prozac and 150mg welboutrin pretty much is what gets me through my day

be happy you don't stutter, makes chances of getting jobs worse

I'm already 22 and I'm still a virgin and unemployed. Well, actually, I've got the chance to have sex with someone who likes me, but I don't like him back in that way so I'm a bit reluctant to do it. I can't stop getting so jealous of NTs around me either. I just want to mix with other people who are similar to me: desire friendships but find socialising hard at the same time. But it's not as simple as joining some sort of club somewhere local with people similar to me. And then I still wouldn't make friends there because every time I go to these places, everyone there always knows eachother already and I find joining in groups the most hardest thing in the world to do.

So I guess I'm f****d too. I'd better commit suicide.

I live in hope that one day I may go through with it. Either that or I just lie down and let it pass.

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Carlin is superb

Yes, he was

I think about all the time and in a way look forward to it - I just don't want to mess with the stupid saleman I have to buy the gun from - but I have had an incredable live as an aspie and it I believe we are the most beneficial beings on the blue ball as humans - we are the good guys it needs more of us and just we need to realize this as hard as it is

One thing that's crossed my ind about people stopping others from killing themselves: Do they do it because they care or do it out of some selfish desire to make themselves feel good about saving a life?

I honestly don't know why I'm still carrying on with my life, it just feels so empty and pointless. I've reached the age 20, friendless, still live at home with my parents, since I cannot afford moving out. I've miraculously managed to land a decent apprenticeship, and that's pretty much the only thing I got going in my life at the moment. I've suffered my whole life with multiples of anxieties, which has become worse with age. I will forever remain clumsy, have the odd and emotionless expression look in my face, run weird, trouble sleeping, picky in food, and a tons of other bad personal traits.

I would imagine that my life hasn't been as challenging as you described yours, but nevertheless I feel suicidal, because the thought of living a life on mediocre salary, no friends, and knowing that I'm more than likely to never feel loved, pains me to think about. I can't give you any protips in how to get through this, but what works for me sometimes is thinking that I'm not actually that bad, and that there actually is people out there suffering way more than I am.