Adult, bipolar, and possibly asperger's

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Hello,

I was diagnosed with bipolar in 1989 and recently have been wondering about asperger's. After finding out that my daughter may have aspgerger's I started taking online quizes and always score in the range of probably having asperger's. I take meds for bipolar - have switched many times over the years. I've always been quiet, with a lot of social anxiety, and a perfectionist. I did best when I was first married, our finances were okay, and had hopes of a bright future for my daughter. Now with a dim outlook for ever feeling financially secure again and my daughter being almost 20 and never having a job with zero motivation, I am generally depressed most of the time.
I alternate back and forth between making a schedule for my life and trying to just live one moment at a time. As I get older (44 now), I just feel more tired of everything, especially trying to lose weight. Thank God I have a wonderful wife and daughter - we have better family relationships than most people I know - or else I probably would have done suicide a long time ago. I should be more thankful that I have a decent paying job, although not the situation I pictured myself in years ago.
It seems that any diagnosis, with the exception maybe of social anxiety, I am "on the border" - which keeps me wondering about the accuracy of the diagnosis and just brings more depression as I then can only blame my own faults for my situation.
So, I hope to be able to meeting people on this board and look forward to finding a community I can possibly connect with.

Welkome to WP

Mick

Welcome! I hope you find support here!

Hi Kenp94 and welcome to Wrong Planet

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