All the time. I feel useless because I can't get a job after 4 long years of trying hard to look for one and also gain skills and experience.
I feel useless because I don't have many friends. I'm getting shyer and shyer by the year, being so afraid of saying something stupid in social situations and knowing that social rules are so complex, so I stay quiet which then decreases the chances to make friends.
I feel I am wasting my young life away because of being on job-seekers. I feel I can't go out and see the friends I do have, without feeling guilty that I should be seeking employment, also after having so many lectures from the jobcentre people that ''you must be here to apply for this job, you can do what you wanted to do any time'', and they do have a point, but I do wish I had a job so that on my days off I can then do whatever I want without having the pressure of having to be elsewhere ''more important''. Yes, I am actively looking for work nearly every day, but there's only so much I can do, and I do have my limits because of this stupid f*****g Aspergers Syndrome I happen to be cursed with. I don't know why there has to be such a thing for. I remember when I was first diagnosed I just yelled, ''oh, why me?!'' and then was hostile with my peers for all being born normal.
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