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Hello all, Im a 43 year old male who who just figured out I have Aspergers. I haven't been diagosed but I did "the math" and I just know. This is the worst year of my life. I told my parents and there in denial. I went out on a limb, hoping they would support me but I had a few angry moments in the "meltdown" category and now my mom thinks im a bona fide pyhcho. I've been running from this problem all my life and now I know why--and im exausted. Now i know why suicide is an option for some. I want to find a support group to find out if others have had the downright odd actions I have had. The damn ocd that has taken years off my life, the countless times I've been anxious and turned red (blush) but the worst is being taken advantage of, picked on and thid is the mighty bridge to low self-esteem. This is what makes me angry! Please, if you personally know of a support group from Los Angeles to Santa Barbara, let me know.

My parents (age 70) had me as loving parents. I wasn't a mistake from a drunk sex, etc. I'm a spiritual person but now I don't any hope for a spiritual side now. Asperger's is a violent curse. There cant be be a God to put someone like myself in this living hell. It makes me sick to hear people say there glad they have IT.

Thank You

califreak,
Sorry you feel the way you do, you sound very isolated and alone. Finding a support group would I think be a good thing for you to do. I do not know of any but I am sure someone here will know of one or how to find one. Stay connected with WP in the meanwhile people here can help and offer support. This is a safe environment where you can share your feelings openly and find others that understand. Good luck.

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Welkome to WP

Mick

Califreak,

I can relate to a lot of what you´ve said! I´m only 20, and believe it or not (haha), I too feel like I´ve lost a large part of my adolescense and childhood to constant ocd and denial of my mental needs!

I wish I could say something to make it all better, but truth of the matter is that you simply need more time. I first speculated having aspergers a year ago and went into consistent therapy only 3 weeks ago and I´m barely starting to feel comfortable with my self-diagnosis.

There is a way you can feel comfortable with being the way you are, but you need someone who shares your pains to listen to you and help you see yourself from a perspective that´s more YOU than the one you´ve been living in. I hope this makes sense! Feel free to message me and write when you´re feeling OCD - I´m comfortable with being a confidant and I think thats essential to have in the healing experience. If it weren´t for my cousin Leonardo, the first person that I´ve felt respected me for being who I am, I too speculate suicide would of been a viable option.

You have the help here Welcome!! !

Hi. Sorry you're having such trouble.

For a support group near L.A., Google the Global and Regional Asperger Syndrome Partnership. I can't post the link yet, because I just started here.