I didnt know i had aspergers

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Hey im new my name Mat im 27 and im from Australia , i have recently been professionally diagnosed with asperges.

All my life i had a feeling i was little different, and not different in the nerdy type way either. I started weightlifting at about 16 years old , through highschool i was the quiet strong guy. in fact i was beating students in arm wrestles that were 7 years older then me. they use to say oh why are you so strong you must be ret*d. that actually made me very angry and i was not the type to get bullied i fought back a few times and then eventually noone said anything and looked the other way.

I would train in my outside gym which consisted of a bench and some dumbells, if there was a storm and i was scheduled to train , i would train through the storm. These sort of things told me i was different. I would research all about fitness and how to improve myself. Girls were very interested in me and i could tell but i always felt strange like i cant say anything or ill get embarressed. , i decided to join the army at 19 as a rifleman. I did exceptional physically but i just lacked the motivation to get up so early every morning. my sargeant said i could be a legendary soldier if i had the willpower. i could see in his eyes he didnt want me to leave but i had to. so on the day of finishing training i left.(8 months training)


I turned 21 but to me it was just another number. i had rejected so many girls at this point that i cryed about it alot (i still do ) just not as much. basically i done nothing but dead ends jobs till i met my first and only girlfriend so far. She used to say you are such a good looking guy im so glad to have you but id never answer back anything i didnt feel the need to. In the end she told methat i lack emotions. (i also lost my virginity to her) a week later i still didnt feel sad or anything until one morning i got out of bed and found a blonde hair. She really was a beatiful blonde girl and all the memories came back and i cryed for at least 3 months.

I am also a very spiritual person and feel connected with the dead, i have heard voices and seen black mist. sometimes i have to turn my light on because i feel a presence in my room.Among other thing i suffer from insomnia , depression, and anxiety.

I have a burning desire in my heart to start acting and eventually become famous for some reason i am an extremely competetive person which i find a good thing. Noone would know i have aspergers if i didnt tell them, my mum told me at 27 '' hey mat come look at this i think u might have aspergers''. at first i said no way but then i started researching and eventually went to a psychiatrist and got diagnosed. I think it was because i am nice looking and quiet guy that noone would ever suspect me of having aspergers. i think its a shame i didnt no a bit earlier but hey i cant change the past (:

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Welcome,

I enjoyed your post, I was going to join the Army, passed my tests for it and all that but ultimately decided against it because of all the involvement in squads etc. Plus i'm pretty sensitive to sensory things but other then that I think I would've done great as i'm already very disciplined. That must've been hard for you at first.

You said that you used to get made fun of in school because you where so strong that people assumed you must have less intelligence but your writing is interesting and you sound very intelligent to me

Welcome

Yeah we are good at following orders

You remind me of myself when I was younger. I’m built like a warship and never got bullied at school, I was great at fighting and was made to going boxing by social workers. Plus I had the looks and never really had a problem with the ladies. I was lucky I guess.

I thought your post was great. You seem like a strong minded individual, someone I’m sure will do well in life.
The fact you missed your first love does show you have emotions, so she was wrong. You most probably express them different like myself. Welcome to Another Planet.

Us older ASpies went through our childhoods never knowing such a thing as Aspergers existed.
We were just told we were "odd".

Welcome - you sound like a wonderful person. Your story about your first girlfriend brought tears to my eyes. I'm so sorry things did not work out. Communication is definitely the biggest hurdle in relationships, and moreso when one has AS.

I just found out that I am an Aspie this year and I am 32 years old. It has really answered a lot of questions in my life and made my things events in the past make a lot more sense.