I'm newly self sufficient

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I got a full time job, finally, almost a year ago. I was living in my parents' at that time, following a really bad breakup of a relationship of over 2 years, during which I had lived with a woman for about 2 years. Prior to that my parents had been paying my rent while I was in college (I took a longer time getting through college, due to a transfer and a couple mental breakdowns, and went as a more mature, slightly older student for most of it). I'm 27 going on 28, but at this point I am just trying to live like an adult. I finally saved up for a car a few months ago and moved out of the city (I had previously been reliant on public trans). I have my own apartment now, a full time job with benefits, and a car . Budgeting is still a bit of a challenge but I'm doing okay. I'm hoping the older folks won't mind my participation in this forum. From the brief message when I first peeked, it looks like I fit the criteria. I'm exactly where I wanted to be two years ago

Congratulations Bartolome.

Sounds like you're getting along okay. Its nice to read a success story, makes me feel like theres hope after all!

Well done!

Don't be too spoiled. I still suffer from intense depressive episodes and the fear that I'll never have a family of my own because I'm so terrified of rejection by women (it sends me into a spiraling depression) that I can only work up the masochism to ask a girl out every five years or so and of course they say no because it's a numbers game; I can't keep risking depression every time I fail to get a phone number and it just confirms what I already think: that I'm destined to be an asexual loser. And being basically a social Darwinist, if I don't manage to reproduce sexually, I think my life as a human being is a waste.

So it's not all roses. At least I like my job. I like myself at my job. Outside the job, I'm a total pathetic loser.