well i am going to say this bluntly. Deep down, i knew i was gay since i was 5. i was always attracted to guys but i never had the guts to say it. i haven't told my family but i know intuitively, they know so it beats me telling them. i always fantasize about having a male partner and him never leaving my side. i imagine being physically affectionate with my boyfriend and hugging and kissing and touching him every minute, literally. realistically, it would never happen because i get angry easily and i don't like people touching me. if i could overcome my bitterness and anger, i would do it. i hope to make that fantasy come true.
