I keep really missing my childhood lately, more than I ever have since I became an adult. I think it's because of the stress I've been having lately, and different things.
I keep having flashbacks of the past what I just can't stop from creeping into my mind. I have no cousins below the age of 13 now, and so the youngest of my cousins are all growing up and changing each time I see them. One of my cousins, who is nearly 16, has changed an awful lot, and I used to see him a lot when he was a little boy, and he was a darling little boy. He was so innocent, even at age 11, and he had such a strong imagination, and he loved it when I came round, even though I was 7 years older. I also remember when he was born, and I actually held him in my arms when he was tiny. Now he towers over me, but I hardly ever see him any more. He's always out with mates, and gets up to mischief now too, and someone even said he was seen smoking, and he's desperate to get to 18 so that he can drink.
Not only that, I also miss me being little aswell. All of my cousins were close, and they came round a lot at week-ends with their parents, and there was no everlasting conversations of drinking at bars, and we often had sleepovers on Saturday nights and played in the park on Sunday mornings, and Christmasses were exciting, and birthdays were too when we had innocent birthday parties (no drinking or sex). I just miss those days, and to think I spent most of my childhood whining and crying instead of stopping to think ''hang on a minute, I should be making the most of my childhood years - I will miss this when we all grow up and get jobs and relationships, and nobody will be the same.'' But I didn't.
Do you miss your childhood too? What I miss the most is the innocence of me and my cousins.
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