Sometimes its hard to put into words how I feel. Anyways, I feel so bad because I feel like I always have to go to someone for help rather than myself. I feel like I don't "love" myself enough. I was also thinking that there is no hope for a boyfriend for me (I'm gay) and that I don't feel good enough. Also, I hate that I have this self defensive mechanism and I tend to be dramatic. I was sorta beating myself mentally. So I was close to hitting myself with my fist but I'm so glad I didn't. I still feel bad as of now but is there any advice you can give me? Thank you so much. I feel so bad for constantly bitching to my friends for help with my "drama"