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09 Feb 2013, 5:29 pm

Since I started beeing aspergers when I where about 12 unlikely most others who get autism at around 1-2-3 years of age, I can easly remember how it was like to not beeing autistic (With autistic I mean asperger).
And the different from the time I where not asperger and now is that now this make me somehow unable to know what is reality and what is not, I could easly waddling back and forth while sitting to get "out of myself". Seems like im in another world...

So the question is if this is how it feels like beeing asperger (eventually schizophrenia)? Because I could not find any place this stands as a symptom on the internet.



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09 Feb 2013, 5:47 pm

You didn't get Aspergers at age 12. If you have it, you had it ever since you were born, but may not have been DIAGNOSED until you were 12. Everyone on the spectrum is born with the condition.

I can`t say that I ever feel like I don't know what reality is or not...I don't think that is an autistic quality. A lot of people say autistic people often seem like they are in their own world, and people have certainly said this often about me. I might LOOK like I am in my own world, but to ME it is reality. So no, I've never felt that way.


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09 Feb 2013, 7:56 pm

I remember looking in a mirror at age 12, 13, 14, and thinking what it means to be myself and not someone else. For example, I can remember doing this in the bathroom when I took a break after Boy Scout Honor Court.

And when I was 19 and a freshman in college, I wrote a little of my main paper in philosophy what it means to be myself and not someone else.



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09 Feb 2013, 8:47 pm

I get this symptom also. Im not sure if its part of aspergers or something else. Its called derealization. For me it seems everything is plastic or dreamlike. I take meds which seem to make things more real.


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10 Feb 2013, 6:53 am

I heard that is a part of borderline PD.



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10 Feb 2013, 9:26 am

Autism is something you are born with.

Schizpergers wrote:
Its called derealization. For me it seems everything is plastic or dreamlike.

I have derealization too. It's a horrible feeling. For me, I think it's a result of stress, but I'm not sure.



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10 Feb 2013, 10:22 pm

I think I've also had some derealization occasionally; I have no idea if it's connected to Asperger's/autism, but then I also don't know whether or not I have Aspergers myself.



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11 Feb 2013, 1:59 am

I think that sounds like the same thing I experience, it feels like I am not real, or dreaming, or something. It's very odd...I've read in a couple different places that it's commonly part of aspergers/autism, but NTs can be affected too (it just happens to be more common in people who are AS/AUT)

It can get a lot worse on it's own too, but I think it's often more mild, like what you are describing when it's part of AS/AUT.



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11 Feb 2013, 10:47 am

It's a schizoid trait. Schizoid Personality Disorder and High-Functioning Autism are closely related.



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17 Feb 2013, 1:47 am

I have paranoid schizophrenia and AS and I experience this on a daily basis. My psych said it is part of my psychotic illness, rather than my autism. I constantly feel as if I am a fabrication or that perhaps I am an alien sent to this planet to study human life. Sometimes, I feel as if I'm watching my life through a screen, and I am just a spectator that knows nothing of the outside world.


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17 Feb 2013, 12:10 pm

It can be a trait of many things but it's actually something that all humans do. It's just that some people do it a lot, some hardly ever. I go into a shutdown state a lot, sometimes it's useful, other times I really need to stay around but just can't. As it's something all humans do, it's also connected to a lot of diagnosis and groups of diagnosis, ASDs being one, BPD being another, anxiety disorders being yet another.



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18 Feb 2013, 11:12 pm

To me it's more like hyper awareness of my surroundings. It feels like I float on the surface of reality and my scope encompasses all the details. Then specific objects/actions/details/sounds force me into hyper focus, where I concentrate on them (sort of like a zoom), but I'm still aware of my environment.
Only when I'm in a quiet and familiar place I seem to relax a bit.
I love night walks in the local park, it's what I do when I can't relax in my sleep.



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25 Feb 2013, 3:07 pm

I have had this too, a few years ago. I'd describe it as a kind of fear. I was really scared that everything around me was unreal; that I was dreaming. It's still hard to explain but sometimes it felt really frightening.

I think it has to do with stress, which often cause anxiety. Also, people with autism often do have a lot of thoughts. Like I have now, but I just can't describe it.. :lol: So many thoughts but I just can't explain. I am just trying to say that people with autism may think more deeply about life and could get these thoughts that life might not be real, it might be a dream, things like that.