infilove wrote:
This might sound a little bit silly but I truely believe this: when I watch and listen to NT's socialize, I almost think it's beautiful -how they approach people they know or don't know to strike a conversation, the way their conversations flow from one topic to another, and how this is all done with such grace. Especially listening to older women talk. It's almost like listening to pretty jazz or classical music. Do you think that too?
No, because if I thought that I'd feel worse than i do just for not being good at socializing period even to get things I want. To think that not only am I missing out on a tool, that tool is some kind of really beautiful thing that everyone else's lives are colored with while mine is grey is unbareable.
it's a lot easier to think that socializing is some perverted, sensless tradition enslaving billions of weak minds.