My name is Stephanie but you may also call me by my internet pseudonym: dollEXE.
I have not being diagnosed, but some of my family members believes I have a form of autism known as Asperger Syndrome.
I have been told that as a child, I would learn by mimickry and had a slight speech impairement (talking on the tip of tongue and a few issues with phonetics) that had been corrected.
I used to be bullied at school, mainly by students, from the first year of Elementary to the fifth grade of High School. There was only one incident where I was bullied/humiliated by a teacher, in front of a whole class, which I think was the most traumatic experience. As I am typing this, I am rocking back and forth, since those memories that I thought locked away resurface.
Today, I speak like everyone else, although, I have a hard time communicating my ideas, opinions and arguments to others. When I do, most of the time they think I am over-exaggerating or they do not understand the message I am trying to convey. Often, it will frustrate me, and sometimes, it even goes as far as blowing up in anger due to the anxiety/stress level being elevated to the breaking point.
I never had Enochlophobia nor sensory issues but, lately, my anxiety would rise to the point that I would shed tears while surrounded by a very noisy crowd. Also, the rage meter rises and the urge to hurt is present.
Thankfully, after being given the the run-around by the medical field, I found a family doctor that is willing to see me and listen to my problems. Hopefully, I will be able to see a specialist and get a diagnosis by summer.
I want some peace of mind.