Are You Drunk? or a way one see's a autistic state.

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My postings today have been reflective and that reflects my
mood that I got up with today. It started with the "Deceptive"
rant on Rocky Horror and R-P-G'rs and deceptive ways that
I recall them.
That is just the start of the morning. At work we have a
supervisor that I am on defensive with since we really don't
get along. Amongst my other duties at work I am answering
in short phrases that require no expression since I don't get along
with the supervisor. I got into a subconscious stage around
her and she doesn't understand it, but said something profound
on how I respond to her and my autistic space zoning around
her. "Are you Drunk", and I would like to say NO!-I DON'T DRINK,
but I am on defensive mode and lights and sound fade into a
cylinder of me in my head. They bounce inside with a echoing
sound and I am unable to respond.
This is like being underwater and all you hear are the vibrations
and are unable to respond properly. This rarely happens to me
but occasionally I will have a day like this.
I am making tuna for the work place, and she decides to
complement me on how dry it is and have you done this before?
I say "I Don't remember" and she says "Are you drunk" by how
zoned I look as sound and lights affect me in a defensive, uncomfortable
envirement.
It is hard for me to see what she saw but I will give it a try....
I had a girlfriend(one of a very few in my life) and after ..x she stares
at me and I feel my VOID emiting from her and her energy is no
longer hers. after shaking it off a little later she explained the void
she felt and how helpless she was to respond or react. The most
profound thing about this is that I was given a rare glimpse of my
STARE and Zone space that other see and feel.

I really don't have a question, but if there were one it would be
HOW DO YOU DESCRIBE YOUR AUTISITC ZONE SPACE?

I've had people tell me I look drunk or stoned, very focused, and of course shy. My parents once accused me of being on drugs. None of it happens too often though. I try not to attract attention that way. Never knew what it looked like from the outside till I met another person with AS in real life.

What is stranger is seeing it in a natural,
genetically transfered way. It is easy
to avoid others energies , but to be
externally surrounded by your own,
that is rare? Anyways, decribe, if you
can YOUR ZONE SPACE?

[I am on defensive mode and lights and sound fade into a
cylinder of me in my head. They bounce inside with a echoing
sound and I am unable to respond.
This is like being underwater and all you hear are the vibrations
and are unable to respond properly.]

If this helps, WHAT SHAPE OR FORM DOES IT
TAKE? This is just a example, be creative.

People often ask me if I am on drugs. Allthough I have never even had a drink. Go figure.

That's interesting because back all the way to when I was about 11 and all the way through high school people would come upto me and say "Are you, like, permantly stoned or something?".

I didn't know that this was a trait of aspies?

Oh! Didn't realize what you were talking about, Ghosthunter. But the example helped.

I tune up my senses and start seeing fractals in everything - music flooding around me in a halo of flashing color, the cacophony of taste, the ever shifting fractals of people moving in and out of connection with each other. I'm a color-letter and color-music synesthete and trained as a painter so a lot of what I do are the same things I'd do to plan a painting. It's a shift in visual perception to see beauty in fallen leaves, the patterns of shadow, trash at the side of a road. It brings a rush of energy but also vulnerability so that it gets harder to keep still and act normal.

If anyone tries to talk to me I snap out pretty quick so that I can answer, but I'm sure I look pretty out of it.

Oh, yes... I've had more than a few occasions where someone mistook me for being drunk or stoned when I was just being myself!

Yep. Over my life I have been asked if I was drugged or drunk.

And I would have been in this state a lot more often if it wasn't for the effort I put in to not being like this in public.

ElfMan

I have been asked numerous times if I am stoned etc. and I even got sent home from school one day randomly because the teacher thought I was on drugs... I was just sitting there in maths and she came up to me and asked if I was okay. I was like "yeah I'm fine, why?" And she asked me to leave, so I did. Then she gets another teacher to 'look at me' and it was quite uncomfortable but then I was sent home and then to the doctors to do a drugs test which obviously came back a negative.

I hadn't given that much thought until now but maybe that is an Aspie trait? Sometimes when I first step into work I see everyone like, looking at me and I get really nervous. My vision can blur, this week someone asked me if I was 'hungover or something'.

Oh, a necrobump from > 10 years ago! This must be a record! Or not?

I'm simply plain weird. People think I'm just nervous, grumpy, sarcastic, sneaky etc depending on their own personality, but they never think I'm under the influence of alcohol or drugs.