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I am 18 and from the UK. I am about to go to university in September. I know this is cliche and I know I am young. But I just have the general feeling that I'm going to be alone forever. I am the sort of person people don't love. No one has ever told me that they have. I have had 4 girlfriends, none of which have made it past 4 months. It just depresses me. I found someone I really love but they don't love me. At all. We used to be best friends for a short while but she has bipolar and kinda went insane on me. I get so depressed over the thought process. It's probably why I'm so fond of Romantic Comedy movies...since it always depicts people and aspirations of mine to have a loving relationship. One where the girl loves me as much as I love them. But I am so afraid that I wont find that. I don't try and look. I don't obsess over it. But I already find it hard as it is; not to talk to girls but to maintain a relationship. It's hard...I just never feel....and the girls always seem to dislike me after the relationships as well and blame everything on me even if I broke up with them. I'm such a confused person right now. I just am so lonely...I just want someone to just be with. I am so nervous of going out....I just feel people judge me all the time. + I'm overweight, girls have said it before and people don't find that attractive...but my family just has a low metabolism and I can't change it. I am really depressed about this and need some sort of directional constructive input.

Here is a link to an article that shows, among other things, the percentage of folks on the spectrum who remain unmarried. For instance, at age 22, 99% remain unmarried. By age 50, it's probably not much better. The article says that those that are high functioning are no more likely to marry or have a job than those with more disabling forms of autism.

I have a job, but believe me, going to my job site everyday is like having someone with a gun pressed to my head. Likewise, marriage would be out of the question, too.

http://sfari.org/news-and-opinion/news/ ... -as-adults

Just remember all it takes is one right person. I've been married for eight years now. My husband may not always get me, but he loves me and accepts me warts and all.

but having all the stars aligned to where you and that other one right person meet and click, is a mighty tall order akin to picking the right lotto numbers at the right time.

That's the biggest problem. Theoretically, the more people you meet, the more likely you will meet someone you click with. Unfortunately, it's hard for someone who's awkward and has trouble socializing to get themselves out there and search. And even when you're meeting people, it doesn't really feel like "meeting" because it's like nobody's meeting the real you. And if someone is flirting/sending out signals, more than likely you've missed them.

I'm 24 and never have had a girlfriend. Sometimes I think about giving up but if it happens that would be great but if not that is okay as well if might have been for the best anyway. I'm sure you will find someone who loves you for you even if it takes while just be patience and stay postive.

if my sweetie hadn't have swept me off my feet when I least suspected some great good luck like that should happen to me, I was ready to hang it up. but life is what happens when you've made other plans. IOW she got me just in time before I would have exceeded my shelf life and have been ready for the ol' cosmic biz bag.

I know all of this and I get it, but it seems so easy for others.

and what I hate is that this girl I really love randomly came back from holiday disliking me.

4 girlfriends at 18 is a better track record than most of the men in the family, including the ones who are married with kids. Just saying.

nah she's not like that