What was your high school life like?

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One friend.

Interested in everything but not motivated to be successful.
Bullying tapered off to only one (I think) fight in my senior year.
I was very happy to leave it behind.
Never considered going to my 50th reunion.

denny

I was a very sucessful truant. I'd go to school, then leave again and go to the field where I kept my horse or I'd make a deal with my mother that if she let me stay at home I'd do the enormous pile of ironing for her, or I'd jump up and down and make myself wheeze so she thought I was ill. I also got very good at reusing excuse notes, so I could just go off to the field first thing in the morning and stay all day.

That ended when my horse was hit by a car and had to be put down After that I was just miserable.

The teachers all got mad at me for not paying attention. They only got more irritated when I got the best exam results at O level in my year.

In the sixth form I was the only girl doing applied maths and physics and every break time the boys would all head into the boys toilets to smoke or something leaving me alone.

I found about AS late in life. I wish I had known what I was up against.

In HS I was ignored and ostracized. Its like thefd was a wall between myself and them. I blamed it on my looks, being skinny. I did not really know what I was up against. I was very resentful towards them (NT's) and shoplifted on a regular basis. I even engaged in vandalism. It (AS) completely destroyed my social life, self esteem and I did not have my first date until well in college. Even then I was so far behind the rest of the crowd I felt inferior for a long time. I remember the summer before I went back to college my senior year my grammas sister in law (Aunt Fay) wanted me to call her niece a girl my age but divorced and out of school. Aunt Fay made me promise I would call her ("I just know yall will fall in love" she said) but I did not. The girl had been in a sorority and I did not call her due to insecurity (did not feel I would have a chance against someone like that - only had a year of dating experience under my belt and felt it would be another stomping like many of the turndowns I had.) I was horribly insecure, many girls my Jr year in college had turned me down and guys in dorm made fun of me. I always wonder what would have happened if I called the girl and what she really looked like. These feelings crept in about ten years ago mainly bc of my failed marriage (wife just wants business relationship) and numerous relationships with strippers and sugar dating site gals. While I have learned social behavior to fit in, I have evolved into a Strip Club Hobbyist. My current ATF (Mistress, Sugar Baby) was a Cheerleader in HS, bikini model, and danced at a club where I am VIP. She is now a paralegal. I have been seeing her 5 years and she has been in her third marriage 3 years. I would not dare discuss what I was like in HS with anyone I know now no more than a government would discuss area 51 or the Roswell incident. At times, I have made up the necessary lie system which portrays me in a positive light if what I was like in HS comes up. When I was first dating in college I studied a dating book written for women and one chapter had the kind of guys to avoid. Guys without friends were a red flag, so I needed to get some token friends or make some up hence the start of my "play book." Not even my wife who I met in college never really knew. The sands of time can cover a lot of problems and wounds. Along the way I learned to emulate NT behavior to some extent at least in work situations. However a Jovian planet is made up differently than a rocky planet and certain situations can shake out the truth. I don't believe traditional relationships really work for me, its just not how my brain is wired (or else all the rejection caused me to be insensitive). But I do like sex and having a go to girl on a regular bases is not a bad deal. I think its even cheaper than being married.

I found about AS late in life. I wish I had known what I was up against.

In HS I was ignored and ostracized. Its like thefd was a wall between myself and them. I blamed it on my looks, being skinny. I did not really know what I was up against. I was very resentful towards them (NT's) and shoplifted on a regular basis. I even engaged in vandalism. It (AS) completely destroyed my social life, self esteem and I did not have my first date until well in college. Even then I was so far behind the rest of the crowd I felt inferior for a long time. I remember the summer before I went back to college my senior year my grammas sister in law (Aunt Fay) wanted me to call her niece a girl my age but divorced and out of school. Aunt Fay made me promise I would call her ("I just know yall will fall in love" she said) but I did not. The girl had been in a sorority and I did not call her due to insecurity (did not feel I would have a chance against someone like that - only had a year of dating experience under my belt and felt it would be another stomping like many of the turndowns I had.) I was horribly insecure, many girls my Jr year in college had turned me down and guys in dorm made fun of me. I always wonder what would have happened if I called the girl and what she really looked like. These feelings crept in about ten years ago mainly bc of my failed marriage (wife just wants business relationship) and numerous relationships with strippers and sugar dating site gals. While I have learned social behavior to fit in, I have evolved into a Strip Club Hobbyist. My current ATF (Mistress, Sugar Baby) was a Cheerleader in HS, bikini model, and danced at a club where I am VIP. She is now a paralegal. I have been seeing her 5 years and she has been in her third marriage 3 years. I would not dare discuss what I was like in HS with anyone I know now no more than a government would discuss area 51 or the Roswell incident. At times, I have made up the necessary lie system which portrays me in a positive light if what I was like in HS comes up. When I was first dating in college I studied a dating book written for women and one chapter had the kind of guys to avoid. Guys without friends were a red flag, so I needed to get some token friends or make some up hence the start of my "play book." Not even my wife who I met in college never really knew. The sands of time can cover a lot of problems and wounds. Along the way I learned to emulate NT behavior to some extent at least in work situations. However a Jovian planet is made up differently than a rocky planet and certain situations can shake out the truth. I don't believe traditional relationships really work for me, its just not how my brain is wired (or else all the rejection caused me to be insensitive). But I do like sex and having a go to girl on a regular bases is not a bad deal. I think its even cheaper than being married.

Worst time of my life. I learned to hate society and I made a vow not to interact with anyone. A good day was when I did not have to say any words to anyone. I was hospitalized for suicidal depression at the age of 17. Marijuana use followed shortly after I got out of the mental institution. It was the only thing that gave me any semblance of a social life. Basically people would allow me to hang around with them as long as I helped pay for the marijuana or gave them rides in my car. I dated girls who I was not attracted to so my peers would quit making fun of me. I got rejected by every girl I approached. I was at the top of my class most of the time until my depression got worse. I was captain of the academic team. I am black, and all the black people hated me, rejected me, made fun of me because I was a nerd. My parents wouldn't allow kids over to the house or take me to see any kids. The only time I remember feeling at peace with myself, having friends, hooking up with girls was when I moved in with my dad and step mom one summer. They kicked me out for no reason, and I went back to the hell hole I lived in with my mom. I almost did not make it to graduation because of my depression. My parents stayed on me and I'm glad they did.

The strange things is that I was apparently kind of popular in school. I think it was because I look okay and I made good grades and was really preppy. I didn't know that. I also didn't know that some of the pretty women I was too ashamed to talk to had crushes on me. I thought everybody hated me because of the abuse I took at home, rejection of my extended family, and rejection by my black peers. This proves how clueless I was because of my Asperger's and forced isolation by my parents.

Even though I had a nervous breakdown, got arrested for marijuana possession, and flunked out of college, it was still a lot better than high school.

Well my mother got the brilliant idea to enroll me in a Catholic all girls school from grades 6-12 .I hated the early commute (5:45 every morning,losing valuable sleep),the religious aspects,but I think it was a good setting for me in that the classes were fairly small.I always had a few friends but never did any activities out of school;I had stopped ballet when I was 15.I was on and off depressed.For 6 months we lived in Europe,which I loved,and I didn't like being back in America (feel the same way at times).High school in England was so interesting,a huge school,you could pick your own electives,I had more friends,got asked to speak as my accent was a novelty.I actually did better in all of my classes than in the US.I took horse riding lessons and enjoyed that.
I was figuring out who I was and still didn't really know myself well.I never dated or went to dances so I luckily missed out on normal teenage life and mistakes some often make.I remember two girls in my graduating class pregnant .My senior year I came into my own more.I ran track,took poetry and creative writing classes(my teacher gave me a journal and said how talented I was),made more friends and enjoyed myself more.One of the track coaches was impressed by me and said it showed how far I could go by not dropping out of track like a few others had.It was hard and a challenge but I tried my best and even competed at a few meets.The coaches said that if I had done track all high school I might have gotten a scholarship to a college and had done really well.The fact that I did it makes me proud and I am so glad I did.
I also enjoyed working in the traditional Hawai'ian lo'i,taro patch.Nearly everyone else complained but I loved the weeding and work we did and didn't mind the mud.I loved reading about Hawai'ian culture and it made sense to me to be involved with the land you live on.
Overall it took a while for me to become comfortable with myself but I think I fared better than many.I was happiest senior year and it was definitely my best year.I enjoyed the senior garden a lot and meeting other friends and track.I am grateful to my parents for sending me there now.

Pretty normal school life. I was bullied a few times, but had a bigger monster at home and did not take any B.S.

I actually like school, it was the most Normal place in my life. We were in the country and isolated from big city Issues (LOL). I really could not have been in a better place during those years. I do think it helped balance me for the most part.

I was on the shy side, but could talk to anyone (but not on a personal level).

terrible. although most of my problems were at home rather than school, but most people at school didnt make things any easier. they all thought i was weird and wouldnt talk to me because i looked pissed off or depressed all the time. i had a couple friends but wasnt really close with any of them. spent most of my time drunk and stoned so i guess i had some good times too.

Isolated...I had a small group of friends by my sophomore year. Junior year I was dating one of the girls in the group. When it ended, every one took sides. it caused too much bs, so I just stopped talking to everyone. Stayed that way until I started college.

Complete and utter torture. Since I was smart, I started HS when I was 13. I hated all the packed in people at the very large school. I did not understand sex and used it as a way to make "friends" inviting several sexual assaults. I became a "cutter" and landed in a mental hospital for over a year.

Good news is that I recovered and now have college degrees and a good job.

It was a very mixed experience for me.

I was dealing with anxiety and depression as well as anger issues and suicidal thoughts for the first half of it and that had a huge impact on my experience. I never got into drugs or alcohol but I did have bouts of self-harm which I managed to get under control after a year or so. Music was the only thing that got me through that period of time.

The second half was easier to deal with as I had cut some of the toxic people out of life and gained a better sense of control over my life which greatly improved my state of mind. I still had some emotional issues to deal with in addition to all the typical teenage stuff (hormones and the like) but I definitely had an easier time of it during the second half of high school.

Mix bag for me. I did my best to try to blend in and fly under the radar and was always "on the outside looking in". I had a few friends, so I was never completely on my own. Not really bullied or hassled since I was decent at sports and normal looking. I actually played baseball, but never fit in with the jocks at all - although they would say "s'up" to me in the halls and stuff. I could talk to stoners and rockers about music all day since I had an interest. Never did drugs or smoked. Paid attention in class, did my homework, got A's. The school work was easy for me to focus on since I couldn't really understand the social part. No girlfriends since I was pathetic at talking to girls. Everybody considered me nice but too shy. I do remember being worried about the way my hair looked and being called a poser - seems silly now to think about it.

Anyway, not too bad, but I also remember not being very happy. The Aspie diagnosis helps put a lot of this in perspective for me now, but back then it was frustrating to deal with, since there always seemed to be something not quite normal about me and I knew it.

College was a lot better since there was less cliques and more people around that I could fit in with.

High school was a popularity contest, and my high school days were pretty much the epitome of loneliness.

My high school was literally a prison - it was housed in a single large building and only a few classrooms had windows. All the walls were painted grey, though most halls were carpeted (though when I visited the campus a couple of years ago, even that had been removed and security cameras had been added)

High school was four years of torture for me. I only went for the classes - my social life was virtually non-existent and lunch time was an hour of constant noise. I got along with most of my teachers very well, but gave up on trying to make friends with the other kids. Bullying was a major problem, especially in my sophomore year. My senior year was not as bad - by that time I was in all the "smart" kid classes (AP). With those classes, it seemed like we were all working together to conquer the AP exams. I did not do prom though (I figured that it was something for "couples", so I never bothered)
Not all my memories of high school were bad, but the best part (of course) was graduation.

Horrible painful lonely