The traits I don't have goes on in a long list which then makes it look like I don't have Asperger's at all. I probably have more ''NT'' traits than I do Aspie traits, but the Aspie traits I DO have are afflicting.
-I can make normal eye-contact (unless I suddenly become conscious of it)
-I don't have an unusual body posture or walk funny
-I can recognise non-verbal cues in other people, and able to read emotions and thoughts through them
-I don't lack empathy for interest in others
-I wasn't ahead or behind my peers in speech development as a child
-I don't have odd eating or sleeping habits
-I am good with one-on-one conversations with people and can engage in small talk. I am quieter in a group but that's from shyness
-I generally understand when someone is joking, and I do enjoy humour. Also I laugh a lot
-I can ''read between the lines'', and I'm good at picking up on social hints
-Everything doesn't need to be explained crystal-clear to me; when someone is describing or explaining something, I can usually picture it as they go along and pick up on what they are saying
-I have common sense
-I played with toys appropriately as a child, meaning I didn't have strange obsessions with certain parts of a toy or lining toys up all day
-I have never rocked or flapped or done any other stims that seem common in Autistics
-I am not intelligent, just around average, and underaverage on some things like math, science and technology
-I don't have meltdowns. I had temper tantrums as a kid, and now I have outbursts
-I don't have sensory issues with eyes, taste or smell
-I am not ''geeky''
-I only speak in monotone if I am nervous of the person I'm talking to (if they are overpowering and partronising)
-I like being touched, in fact I enjoy it and I crave for it because it then makes me feel less isolated
-I desire friendships and can't deal with isolation, yet I struggle with making friends at the same time. I'm all right at keeping friends, though
Traits I DO have:-
-Prefer routine and I like to know exactly what's happening, otherwise I start getting unsettled and agitated
-I have obsessions with certain people, and I can get infatuated with men
-I can have outbursts from too many emotions like panic, anxiety, jealousy and anger
-I have bouts of depression, where I keep crying and feeling so down about myself and thinking I'm a loser
-I am anxious, and I worry obsessively over things others take for granted. My anxiety is usually related to social phobia
-I am socially awkward in some ways, and often give off the wrong vibes (another thing that makes me feel miserable)
-I have sensory issues with hearing, and certain noises bother me because I become easily distracted by everyday household noises
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