Nambo wrote:
But in the permanent absence of the above, what is preferable, an empty emotional void filled with unsatisfied longings in an otherwise mundane but comfortable existence...
Ideally the emotional void would be such that there were no unsatisfied longings because there would be no longings at all. To be a proper void it would have nothing in it.
Generally I'm ok if I don't have to deal with other people. It's when people tell me about their lives that I realise that I'm missing out or not living to the full and then I feel trapped and depressed because I can't figure out how to change my life.
I prefer it when I'm in a void. I met someone recently that I liked and spent a happy hour or two talking to him and then I realised what I was missing out on. Don't know what the chances are of running into him again. I wish I hadn't met him because then I would just be happy in my void and nothing would have interrupted that quiet peacful life I was living. I'll get over it eventually and go back to normal again soon enough I suppose and stop writing in this section.