I just want someone to love...

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I'm 17 years old and since a couple of months, i seem to really like this girl in my class. Before i caught myself having this feeling i had no problem communicating and engaging in conversations with her or other people. But since the point that i started having feelings for her i have become worse in communicating, i feel pushed out of the group more and more. I can't seem to make fun jokes any more. When in conversation or close to her i Snap shut. Since september i have been having mood swings: At one moment I am super happy and the next moment I start over thinking everything and feeling like s**t and just wanting that the whole world would die! And between these two extremes I feel so numb.
I think my (brain/inner me) just want somebody to love and spent time together. And the most annoying thing is that other people seem to make friends with her so easily. I also since then have more and more anxiety attacks that feel like I am crumbling inside.
HOW can I overcome this problem. I have told my best friend i have autism, but he doesn't seem to grasp that it's really hard for me to communicate and make friends. ( not saying he isn't friendly)

PS: I felt myself trembling of stress/anxiety. If I am unable to change this that i will never be able to have a relationship or very close friendship.

Please Help Mee :/
"I long for that feeling to not feel at all." - Bring me The Horizon
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are you in shape?

At the moment not really but i have picked up my sports club again and am trying to jog once a week

too bad that no one cares to give some tips :/

Newsflash: No one does care. At all. The only person that can really care about you is yourself. Everyone else is playing you like a fiddle.

Not quite true, some of us older Guys know what you are going through and feel for you, but we cant give any tips because we never figured it out ourselves.

Here:

Yuck, how could someone even make such a disgusting offensive gif? Someone should remove that. gif Ferrus91 posted.

I understand. I can be confident until I really need to be and then I just can't say anything coherent at all. I feel like I'm trapped in a body that doesn't work.

I am told that practice helps. Just practice talking to people and expect to make mistakes. Aparently just forcing yourself to talk and get through the nervousness is meant to help. Like learning a musical instrument. You know you won't hit all the right notes the first time you try to learn a tune. But with practice you will learn it. Maybe you will never play the tune perfectly, but you will start to play it better than when you first started learning.

It isn't easy. But you are only 17, so you have loads of time to learn and improve and grow in your skills.

Do you have any one you can confide in about your mood swings and feeling depressed? If it is really affecting your life you might be wise to go and speak to your doctor about it and get some help. There is no shame in asking for help.