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Two years she flirted and played and was my friend and we were close. After two years she admits I'm friendzoned admits it and I'm sad and hurt because I love her.
I hate it and I love it. I prayed to god for a friend and she has been and she's been good to me but I'm hurting I want to come to terms with this. She admitted she has a new boyfriend and dammit I HATE IT! It hurts it really does I'm just venting I've not been here for so long ask for more details if you like I want to let it out I want to let my feelings out this way so it will sting less. I really did love her but I always knew and even so I can't stop the pain, I can't control how I feel but I can control how I express it. If anyone has been here or wants to listen please post and ask I can't give personal information but I want to say how I feel and talk to people about it because I know it helps. I'm 26 and I've been alone my whole life not a shocker here but I honestly thought I found someone just ONE who could finally be with me and I didn't I knew I didn't but my feelings didn't let me believe it, I need help guys.

You're right. She does, I cared for her she wants me happy and tries really hard to not hurt me. I ask her for tips alot one time she even gave that confusingly xD.... I learned you don't send girls you like pictures of girls you think are hot. I want to stay friends I just want these other feelings to leave so I can be an honest friend to her she'll be good to me she always has been.

Wow - my heart really goes out to you. I have been on the hurtful end of that a few times, and I know that it hurts like hell. About every negative emotion I know of comes flooding over me, but then mixes with another flood of positive emotions as I think back on all the good times. Major emotional overload. And yeah, for me too the only way out of it is to experience it and work through it. And expressing what I am going though to others is a big, big part of that process.

I know that when I am going through something like that I just need someone to listen, not give advice or try to talk me out of feeling like crap.

That said, I will offer the one saying that helps me afterwards when I am tempted to relive it. (Someone gave it to me, so I like to pass it along.) In those times I say to myself: "Don't cry because it is over, just smile because it happened."

When I sometimes look back on a lifetime of loves that have come and gone, remembering that saying will almost always bring me back to a place of gratitude that I at least had the opportunity to experience love.

I thought it over and she may not have known out of sheer ignorance because more than once I made plain my feelings were more than friendship and just when I start to trust her with my feelings fully she admits she has a boyfriend. It's been a long time coming but I feel she hurt me. I feel intentional or accidental she hurt me to a degree I can't forgive her for or trust her again. I told her this and I plan and hope I can keep my promise to not contact her for a week just to get the sting out. I may feel I was wrong I may feel I was right but I want time alone and I still doubt I'll forgive her she had too many chances to let me know she didn't feel the same not even a little. I can't forgive someone who causes anyone this pain when they had such chances to avoid it. I can't be sure she's really friend material. I start a new job tomorrow it will keep me busy and I have school in the mornings so my day is full from sun up to sun down. If in a week she can't forgive what I said or I can't forgive or trust her again then I will say goodbye. I promised I would say goodbye so I'll not just disappear but I need time and courage to stay away she is hard to stay away from for me it hurts even now even knowing she doesn't feel the same I can't think straight and be fully honest with my head and heart so hurt. Thanks for the support guys and yes there were a lot of good times lots of hours on the phone and skyping until she fell asleep lots of good and more good than bad. I've been hurt too many times and can't simply walk back without stepping away. Thanks for the posts guys it helps.

Cut her off. Being around her if no good for your mental health.

Oh yes, my friend, I know that "jonesing" for contact feeling all too well. My withdrawals from alcoholic addiction and smoking addiction were cakewalks compared to the process of withdrawing from a love interest. For me, I have no words to describe how distressful it can be.

The only good news is that I find it is indeed a process. For me the process takes weeks. With any luck your mileage may vary on the "sooner" side of things.

I broke I'm sorry. I break I couldn't I need the friendship i need connection I'm weak I'm sorry I tried I prayed. I mean nothing and i crawled back.

It's hard. I am in the same situation (a close bond with a female friend that also has some sexual attraction). I went cold turkey for like a month (no contact). It was unbelievably painful. Now I am trying limited contact while putting energy into things outside the relationship and processing my feelings with others. It hurts but not as much as going cold turkey.