Anyone else suffer from Pure-O OCD?

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I'm pretty sure I have Pure-O OCD. Pure-O is a form of OCD that is very hard to recognize. The compulsions tend to be very subtle, but the obsessions are definitely there. I learned about Pure-O when I was researching sexual confusion on the internet.

I came across and article on HOCD. It described my situation almost perfectly. After that I researched Pure-O. I realized that I have a few other obsessions.

One of those obsessions was with my eyes. I was afraid that my eyes were so weird no one would ever get my prescription correct and that escalated into being afraid of having some weird eye disease.

It's fascinating stuff actually. Most of time it was hard reading about it, on one hand, it was relieving to have some understanding of it, you could obsess about something to the point of panic, and then read about it over and over to sooth yourself. But if you weren't obsessing but happened to read about it, it could trigger a panic......

without saying anything specific, I've understood it as, I think I am something, I have something, or will become something, and it terrifies me, when in reality, it's either entirely untrue, or mostly untrue. I read books about a certain thing, and then in a rising panic, began to relate those things to me, and believed I would become that thing. It was like mental illness hypochondria with extreme panic. It started after I had been using mary jane for a while, and began using it with ecstasy. That was the straw that broke the camels back and got me into therapy.

DK, what ever it is that keeps you unsettled and searching, I hope you find it.