12 Jul 2014, 6:55 pm
I dont know what I am, and I haven't been diagnosed, and not sure if it would do any good to diagnose at this point, because its only become a problem in relation to my husband. Otherwise I think Ive coped very well, and I am pretty content with everything. Ohmmmm namaste and all that lol.
The only things I can talk to great lengths about are life, existence, death, happiness, sensory experience, earth, and social justice. Ive learned to cope through my acting and speech classes though, so i can sort of keep small talk going for a bit, but then it just... ends. I do have a handful of other interests I love (arts, universe theories, humanities), but thats it. Its a good thing my husband is the chatty one, because no one really likes to talk about that ALL the time-- theres a time and place im sure, but its not every day all the time, and its not polite dinner, elevator, breakfast, coworker, landlord, or bedroom conversation. so instead Ill play video games or draw/paint/read.
So theres that, or am I just a cynical, selfish as*hole? I UNDERSTAND on a theoretical/pattern/systemic level things like emotion, psychology, social dynamics, and can appreciate any motivation to humanity, I love language, speech, all expression of art and perspectives and I love hearing about it all... but I feel like an alien, observing it all, deeply effected because "these are my people" so to speak, but helpless because my attempts to help and connect would be misunderstood and futile.
so maybe im just a cynical socially awkward outcast, with hidden/repressed issues keeping me from access emotions that I LOGICALLY know I should have/would be appropriate to respond with, but cant? But i have no real "issues"-- i am I think balanced between pessimism and optimism (some call me depressing, I say its realistic!!)... I have social anxiety, but its because I feel like im holding tons of secrets I cant talk about because no one wants to hear them.
In any case, hello! I really just hope my reading through the forum and such, I can help my husband understand why I appear so emotionally unavailable, but I do care really, I just dont know what else I can do to convey that I am, but maybe someone in this forum Im sure has already addressed this. See yall 
13 Jul 2014, 2:48 am
13 Jul 2014, 3:16 am
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13 Jul 2014, 6:24 pm
28 Jul 2014, 2:57 pm
The only things I can talk to great lengths about are life, existence, death, happiness, sensory experience, earth, and social justice. Ive learned to cope through my acting and speech classes though, so i can sort of keep small talk going for a bit, but then it just... ends. I do have a handful of other interests I love (arts, universe theories, humanities), but thats it. Its a good thing my husband is the chatty one, because no one really likes to talk about that ALL the time-- theres a time and place im sure, but its not every day all the time, and its not polite dinner, elevator, breakfast, coworker, landlord, or bedroom conversation. so instead Ill play video games or draw/paint/read.
So theres that, or am I just a cynical, selfish as*hole? I UNDERSTAND on a theoretical/pattern/systemic level things like emotion, psychology, social dynamics, and can appreciate any motivation to humanity, I love language, speech, all expression of art and perspectives and I love hearing about it all... but I feel like an alien, observing it all, deeply effected because "these are my people" so to speak, but helpless because my attempts to help and connect would be misunderstood and futile.
so maybe im just a cynical socially awkward outcast, with hidden/repressed issues keeping me from access emotions that I LOGICALLY know I should have/would be appropriate to respond with, but cant? But i have no real "issues"-- i am I think balanced between pessimism and optimism (some call me depressing, I say its realistic!!)... I have social anxiety, but its because I feel like im holding tons of secrets I cant talk about because no one wants to hear them.
In any case, hello! I really just hope my reading through the forum and such, I can help my husband understand why I appear so emotionally unavailable, but I do care really, I just dont know what else I can do to convey that I am, but maybe someone in this forum Im sure has already addressed this. See yall
Wow, this sounds just like me!
LostWayfinder
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Joined: 27 Jul 2014
Age: 39
Gender: Male
Posts: 33
Location: St. Louis, Missouri
28 Jul 2014, 3:45 pm
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