Feeling weird

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Hi, everyone - I just want to start off by saying I'm really really sorry I never came back to the last thread I started here in The Haven....I just needed to say something to get it off my chest; but thank you all very much for your replies, then.

I got some more Prozac and I'm taking that again, but I just went back to college a few days ago and the first day went okay, but I have another required math class this semester. I have had really, really, really bad experiences with math classes (Algebra) during my college career, and when I went to my Contemporary Math class yesterday, I was feeling really triggered and was even starting to "go inside my head" a little bit....I know it's such a stupid thing to be anxious about, but there it is. I was just feeling trapped and anxious and I just wanted to have one of my plushies in my arms (I take at least two of them in my backpack everyday, but don't take them out ever). But when I found out that the math we'd be using in the class was stuff we'd use everyday and there wouldn't be as much algebra, and when we did some stuff and I understood it reasonably well, I felt better....when I felt myself going inside my head, I pulled myself back by focusing on the instructor's Polish accent....I like accents.

I also felt triggered again this morning, too, in one of my English classes....I'm back in my room now and don't have another class until this evening tho, so I'm feeling semi-okay now.

I don't really know what's going on with me....I guess I just want to vent a bit and know that I'm not the only one.

What do you mean by "go inside my head"? I tune things out and drift into fantasies when I feel stressed or anxious and I can't physically get away.

Mindsigh!! It's good to see you here on WP again! And yes, that's pretty much what I mean by "going inside my head"....tuning things out and drifting into fantasies. Although, for me, sometimes, it can feel a bit like dissociating.