Several reasons: my age; fear of the disruption from all the appointments, fear of being in a room for hours with an evaluator, and also fear of a diagnosis being official and then wondering if that will adversely affect other official things, like if I ever want to emigrate again, and have to disclose, car insurance, or if I wanted to adopt -- just other things that this being on my medical records might affect.
I also fear the sheer disruption of finding myself scheduled-into a whole string of appointments that will take two to three hours each. For me, that represents a huge disruption to my life even though it's me who will be initiating it all. How aspie is that...."My routine will be disrupted!" It sounds lame but I seriously fear getting that whole ball rolling -- appointment times that will be made for you and might cut into things I need to do, my work, and another schedule I have regarding a special interest. God that all sounds so lame, but I really worry about that.
My age is another aspect -- at 52 I wonder if there's any point. There is no help for me, and in a country that is already cutting welfare so severely that there was a case of a terminally ill person being told to "get back to work," I really don't see me even qualifying for disability, early retirement or any other financial help. I'm also self employed, thus there are no accommodations to be made in a workplace. There are no accommodations or beneficial aspects to my having a piece of paper at all. So there's almost no point.
Except for my own peace of mind in having my suspicions confirmed. I've already been told by a friend who is a clinical social worker that it seems likely I am and an evaluation would be strongly indicated as a good thing to pursue. She can't officially diagnose me but she knows enough to informally say it's worth it going by my history and traits. So I still may pursue it, I'm just trying to get up the courage to take that step.
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