vickygleitz wrote:
In my opinion, Autistic people who are also ADHD are the most fun and interesting people to be around.
So, how do you feel about getting the official diagnosis?
I have kind of mixed feelings about it all. The diagnosis wasn't a big a deal as the realization to begin with that I might be Aspie. It just comfirmed what I was suspecting all along.
But I'm having some issues with it. One is simple -- it bothers me that the problems I have are something that I can't just "get over". It makes me feel deficient in a way. I know it's not necessarily a bad thing, but just a different way of thinking. That leads me to a more pressing problems -- my family's reaction.
Interestingly, I just got through with an intervention of sorts with my mother and brother over the results. They both saw the results as completely negative (and to tell the truth, there was nothing of a positive nature in the report, as it only highlighted the areas where there are problems). Both -- but particularly my brother -- used my report as an excuse to point out everything that is wrong with me, how annoying it's always been, and how they've both been walking around on eggshells because I'm supposedly so hard to get along with. My brother believed that I was intentionally talking myself into having a condition that I didn't have. He pointed out that he has a lot of the same characteristics (???) and there's nothing wrong with him. He says the testing seems legit enough, but that I may have just misinterpreted my social problems, and that he sees me as having no social problems at all. I tried to explain to him how the ASD affects me, but he would shoot down every one of my explanations and say that I can't blame all of what I am on ASD. He pretty much tuned me out when I was trying to describe the basics of ASD in a way he could understand, and he refuses to read any books on the matter.
I was going to get into it with him over all this, but I chose to keep my mouth shut. They said it wasn't "Attack Cindy Night", but it sure felt that way. I started to cry at one point because of the frustration of it all, or I would have done more to defend myself. I started today on some new anxiety medication. My brother tells me that I "get mad at everything", which is total horse$#!+. But I acknowledged that I may have been reacting to situations in an extreme way that might have been interpreted as anger, rather than confusion or frustration or astonishment. Maybe the meds will help with this, and subsequently with his and my relationship.
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AS: 136/200
NT: 66/200
EQ: 45/50
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