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I'm very stressed right now.

--First, my job is terrible and I get paid next to nothing, but looking for a new job is also difficult
--First and a half, that was my third job this year
--Second, I promised myself that I would go back to school next year
--and Third, I have a lot on my plate, including being involved in practically every activity in church

These seem easy to solve from a logistics point of view. Hate your job? Quit it. You're at the age where you can find another one. Need to go back to school? (Post gap-year) Your dream was to go into broadcasting, so check out a few broadcasting schools. Worst-case scenario: go back to the community college. Doing too much at church? Talk with someone about doing less.

Not to mention winter is coming, along with holidays, which bring family fighting and bitterness, not to mention my Dad's house is always cold.

But the third really is the hardest. I hate to displease others, and although being in the worship band is too much right now (I also don't really want to play guitar anymore, which has more to do with it) it's too emotionally hard for me to back out. I also want to do a little less with the youth group so I can have a chance to find people who are my age (although that could be counter-productive with my Aspergers).

Part of me wants to die; that seems to be the only simple way out of this. I don't think I need as much advice as I do support, but advice is always welcome.

From your description, I would prioritize a course of action as follows:

1) Family bitterness and infighting
2) Job - Schooling
3) Finding new friends
4) Church activities

You may not see it in this order, but church can actually act as an anchor in your life to launch yourself into other activities. Sure, if you think you're doing too much, scale back some of your church activities and use some of that spare time to try other things, if you feel that church is denying you the opportunity of meeting new friends.

Your family comes first. If you have an unsettled home life, this will affect your ability to do well at school and find the right job. You need to work out what you can do to make your life more comfortable at home. Failing that you need to consider leaving home.

Finally, getting the right job is linked to how well you do at school, so the sooner you go back to school the better, but you need to be in the right frame of mind before you go back to school.