ImAnAspie wrote:
Whenever I post a reply to a thread, I always check back to see if anyone's quoted (paid attention to me on) whatever I've said.
Not because I've got a big head but because I want to be included. I want to feel like I belong.
I think you have made an error in thinking quotation is a metric that indicates anything about what people think of you and whether you belong.
I recognize your screen name because I often read what you write. If I am not quoting it, it doesn't mean I don't value it. I tend to write about my own obsessions and only quote to emphasize or disagree with something. Much of the time I read something and value it but say nothing.
I think your feelings about this are a bit distorted because you are linking the posting/being quoted thing to other issues that are probably related to being autistic--because your experience is continuous and all these things seem like factors in making up that experience. But the reality is that these things are not connected. This place and the people who post here are not the same people in your immediate surroundings and their actions are not about you or primarily part of the story of your life. Thinking of it that way will only make you feel worse, or like you have been denied something that you are entitled to, which is unhealthy.
I hope you feel better and find ways to get the connection that you need.