Aspie Woman and I'm becoming agoraphobic.

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I knew for about 1 year now that I feel stressed and often physically ill when leaving the house. I put off college for quite a while and dropped out before class started last semester.

The thing is I signed up again and I've been anxious/overstimulated for awhile and do not like being home all day anymore because it is boring which is why I signed up. Also I would like to meet a guy for sexual relationship by age 20 which is my next birthday. (I just turned 19 last month)

I am still having trouble leaving the house. My doctors want me to go for a 5 minute walk down the street and I keep avoiding it from anxiety.

I feel ill everytime I get home from out. It gives me migraines and makes me overwhelmed. But I go on computer until I feel ill or for up to 20 hours per day like addiction when home. So I don't know what's worse. I feel stimulated about going to school. Plus my mom doesn't want me to go to the doctors. She threatens for me to pay for it & I have no $.

Which is why I need education/job in the first place

I said I won't need to if I control my behavior but my Mom thinks I will have a meltdown if i return to college. In high school and before I had one every day. But success is important to me.....

I've experienced a similar set of problems for many years, including agoraphobia. You can check my post history to relate. If you are socially isolated, you must find a place to go weekly to fulfill the tribal need. This can be done via meetup.com--I go to a trivia night every week for three hours where I also play Blokus. If you cannot drive, have someone else take you. My phobias, including my driving phobia, have wrecked my life since the age of 15.

Originally, it was hard for me to go outside. It still is. I'd struggle at the door for 30-60 minutes during the late night when I'd try to go for walks. I can now go without hesitation and with ease during the early morning and late night. I started out by covertly exiting the house by way of my backdoor, but now I can use the front door. My fear of being seen, my fear of cars, my fear of people, and my fear of being outside is slowly reaching functional levels. You can do it.

I started an SSRI called Prozac in late September, which I stopped late November. While I'd like to say that it helped, what was instrumental in my improvement was going out to trivia night and being around nice people who accepted me. Again, that part is very important. Social isolation will ruin you, and I still feel ruined because of this multi-year tailspin of mine. I have another drug called Inderal (propranolol) that I take as needed to calm myself, but I rely on it less and less.

I want you to journal daily if possible. Just write to get some perspective and an overview of all that is going on. If you don't have this, it will be like you are flying blind. Journal-keeping will add structure. Write whatever comes to mind if that works for you. It will give you a chance to remove yourself from the suffocating, dreadful microscopic perspective, then give you a chance to build a reassuring macroscopic perspective for yourself. I review mine as I go along. It works for me.

If you have a car and can drive, then find a place to go daily. If I could drive, I'd go to the library or Panera. You can create another safe haven to go daily to get yourself out of the house. By building this routine, you will have an easier time transitioning to college and/or a job.

I read and respond to PMs. Best wishes

I suggest you do not post on an electronic forum that you want a sexual relationship. Might want to edit that post if possible. You might still want it, just don't tell everyone.

Americans seem to have this social pressure to lose their virginity early. There is nothing wrong with waiting for the right person and losing it to someone you love and wants you for more than just sex, even if it takes a few more years (or ten).